Dirty part of art.
In the art shops.
Steps of work.
I know your name.
International Women’s Day.
Advantages of process.
Benefits of sticky notes.
Results of intensity.
Impossibility of easy roads.
Archive. Previous month.
On Sunday I wrote 18 pages, 17 scenes – it was huge unforgetable experience during part 3 of play.
Yesterday was Theatre's day and I celebrated it with finishing first draft of one more play. Two last scenes. Last one with ten characters in it.
I won size of 120 pages. It was my next aim. Previous was write monthly.
This time I won't upload this play during March. It's impossible. For such sizes better not such frequently upload new texts. And in March was new text about cups.
I need to read new, just finished text again and find out if I wrote all what I need to make infromation for mistery clear. Maybe it's influence of Italian language, passion and something in this, that in this story there are a lot complicated relationships, they all have crazy personal life, hope it will make them more alive. Even I as writer was amused about many of their choices.
After it will be revision with huge amount of pages to correct. And this time I made more than usual locations for story. I need to paint interiors. Art should dry and I must made costumes.
Of course during writing that big play I have few new ideas and even one spin off for this story. Every idea which could be written I write on notes. How it looks like in the end of process? Behaviour remind of Niffler, but for me every idea is shiny. Only few days ago I saw “Fantastic beasts and where to find them” 2016. Really fun film. Of course, chase in jewellery shop was epic till the last moment with window and meeting with police afterwards.
Work like everything in this life should bring satisfaction. I know that 120 pages is screenplay basic. For me it was unreachable level in text on English language, like some sport target. Now I could do it and this is brought satisfaction to my professional experience.
I started work on this play 6th of March and finished 27th of March. Three weeks not bad result for first draft, of course with pauses to real life daily struggles.
Wednesday’s news from London once more proved – world is not safe and if you think so, you are wrong. We live daily in news how many people were dead or injured. Teracts, earthquakes, famine and this list is not ending. Pain is everywhere.
Yesterday was 40 days since grandfather's death. Time went quickly, not for good in this situation.
Tonight was heavy rain with thunderstorm and as unexpected gift that internet connection still works. First thunderstorm, maybe won't be more snow and spring really came.
I will write about creative work, because it helps me to make plans and work on projects which are connected with future.
Few posts ago I wrote how difficult it was to write scene with fifteen characters. But easy roads are not for me, I wrote a scene with eighteen characters.
Maybe I like challenges, they give feeling of accomplished work. On easy road you never know was it worth in first place or not to fight for it.
Size is not single idea which make this story different. I returned to my old habit, sweet spot, my weakness. I can't resist it like perfumes. Multilingual text. I know, it's not for everyone taste, but I like it.
Some Italian. Story takes place in Tuscany.
I count it's as reason to find again my Italian study books. And listen to more Italian songs. I heard lot of them. “Buongiorno Italia buongiorno Maria con gli occhi pieni di malinconia buongiorno Dio” Toto Cutugno L'italiano not only on my mind daily. When I went near music shop this song is still in play list and this was two days ago. We live in this melodies.
English is not easy or short road in my creative life, but it changed me and it changed my relationshps with writing, I finished lot of projects. Not easy roads are given for us to have enough time to learn.
I felt that play will not be so short like I was afraid at beginning. Size in King in my writing, I could praise every hundred words. But this time was different. I could call this – freedom to write?
Why I am so happy? This text isn’t finish yet. I don’t know how long it will take me to finish it. I didn’t care, I just write scene after scene.
When I wrote “End of Part One” I understand that made big step to proper size. First part a little more than 12000 words. I did it. Hope will be only two parts, because in second part I have already two new characters which weren’t at first part. Two series or something like that. On English, music louder – I overcame that barrier.
Length, size of text is really only depended of my possibilities to tell story in English. This problem is solvable. More time spend on work with vocabulary, reading and words in English now is in text.
Size, of course, is not only target. In story I gave opportunity to characters be alive. They talk, have memories and made different actions. I just write and like it, because now I am focused on story, not of my luck of possibility to write long text.
I have no idea if I finish this text in March. Who knows? This different level is other writing speed also. Quantity gave strong belief that I can do it, after it came size of text.
Only writing could have measurable results on writing. Theory books and advice articles are waste of time without practice, lot of practice. Everything is manageable when story has something which inspire writer.
Till next post, on Friday. Today I will research possible references for art ideas.
Saturday is time to relax and to think. From beginning of March I returned to daily blog. I needed it like intensive therapy to quickly back on track in English.
When my story became 10000 words I understand that received necessary results. Story didn't end yet. But I am exhausted from such writing and not always have mood to blog. I think about next scene and it tooks all my writing time. With many characters I write slowly to show every character's place in story.
Maybe it wasn't best idea to add more work to myself. Many papers problem after grandfather's death, not to count grief. I didn't agree when one person said “it's much easy when waits for death. You know that person won't live long.” I don't think so. You feel hopeless that you can't help.
All that paper routine connected with people with who you talk during waiting. Maybe our government wants to get rid from all Ukraine's citizens, such thoughts are from prices for everything and worth qualities of life in perspective. Or like said other person “Good that he is dead now, medicine will be expensive now.” With such optimism of people not easy to turn to creative mood and write something connected only with writing or art.
I think, two posts a week: Tuesday and Friday. For now I am not ready to write once a week.
And I need some time for art itself.
One more, after that in Instagram I can't check everything daily I have different moods. First – from where I will find ideas about colour mixing and everything else. Second I liked more – after that problem with hashtag I am free from mess and not necessary noise. I don't spend time of one or other idea which came to mind someone in the world. And problem that not every image had some real connection with promised hashtag, it's annoying. I search and found what I need, what is necessary for me for my next art project. I am in charge with route, it helps to feel wings again.
I like sticky notes because of their colourful variations. But they are absolutely necessary for writer’s work.
I put on board who is with whom will be in my story. After party two characters connected with each other. It was different idea from me, other couple. They are adult people, they could made own decision. And what I did – change place of sticky notes on the board and change a pair. Best tool ever.
Little problem that mine notes don't good on wood board. They just fell like leaves in the autumn. Good, that I put number at every notes, I could find their time line. Use of adhesive tape to put it on place gave me deep thoughts.
Yes, just colourful paper, which I could make sticky with same adhesive tape.
Outline with movable pieces of the story is best idea. You could change anything and don't feel that you made something wrong. You just remove not necessary for you parts and life became easy.
I can't understand writers who change nothing in story. Maybe characters didn't surprise them.
I tried different methods – write every scene on notes and write only big important for story points. All helps, when you don't lost necessary moments. With sticky notes you move it where you need it now. Sometimes you need to change everything, but not always direction is clear. Instead, when you search for leprechaun you should know what to do.
“Crimean status referendum, 2014, March 16. The official result from the Autonomous Republic of Crimea was a 96.77 percent vote for integration of the region into the Russian Federation.”
History of Ukraine was changed. One question which stays – it’s forever or temporary.
I want that deathes will stop for every territory, not only on Ukraine. Such stupid wish of stop all wars, solving problem with health and food. Just using mind for good, not how to make every possible situation worse.
Status. It was crazy divorce with Ukraine, later remarriage with Russia. Few years ago I decided it changed my life. I didn’t forget cursing of my surname. Maybe I was over emotional. But I went to other road. “What if” is not for me. If there are still problems with understanding in Ukraine of World War II, for Crimea will be need hundred or more years.
To return or not to return. Main question. I agree only with idea that it should be done as was in Germany. If time will came, Wall will fall. And status won’t mean anything.
In Ukraine we still hear daily weather in Crimea, it should give some hope. Problem that we haven’t power to return nothing, even respect to our country after luxury life which live people who ask for help to nation.
I catch myself on thought that I haven’t plan what could be if Crimea will be still in Ukraine. I mean, what could be with my writing. I had plans, definitely, but I can’t make them real. What for had sorrow for them. If or when Crimea will return I will be writing next text, because I do it all the time. I won’t write happy returning poems, I can’t wrote all I felt few years ago. I just closed door to that feelings, sometimes it really helps.
It all reminds me results of census. I don’t know how in other countries, I knew about Ukraine. Married women where more than married men. Women are not crazy, they didn’t invented husbands. They just wrote married when lived with one flat with men and together paid for everything. It is clear by our marriage law. You could figure out, that same men from this couples wrote – single. Sorry, but it reminds status of Crimea on political map and that’s all.
Good that today has same number. It looks cool. But fifteen is number of characters with which I wrote yesterday's scene.
I spend whole day on it. It was difficult, to give opportunity every character say at least one word. It’s like fight scene with lines. Lot of lines. Good that the more I write I understand better every character.
I tried to listen, while writing, for Italian songs. It was difficult. Two foreign languages at once, too much for my mind. So I switched to Bossa Nova, usually it called music for cafe, relaxing and without words. What I need. My words are enough for me.
I heard about writers which prefer quietness. Perhaps they could afford it. Music is best solution when in house on front of your windows start to improve roof.
My problem with fifteen characters is - I didn’t learn how to write character without lines.
I didn’t figure out what to do next, maybe write scenes with less characters in them. It was different, but tiresome experience.
P.S. After daily work with research about art I usually try to find references. Have some blogs, which check time to time. Usually it's social media. What I saw today since early morning.
Every hashtag which I have in links doesn't work. I will find what to draw, it's not a problem. I have a lot of references. But problem that I thought I was really smart when instead of adding hundreds links to every artist, I chose to use whole bunch of daily ideas. Few address I could remember, but it's not whole picture.
Poor people who are addicted to social media, they have different struggles with communication.
Maybe I write that before, but for me is important to count daily words. It's system of productivity, which based on it. Like with scrabble, you can't see words, you see numbers.
In every document you can see tiny line – how many words. And main idea of writers work to check it. Accounting of creativity. Quantity for everything.
I definitely check daily work, but after it was done. I could work really hard and found out - it was 500 words of intense scene. Or I could felt that didn't write what I know to next scenes and in printing had 7 pages. I believe that some writers could work their ten pages daily and be correct like good clock.
I wrote play after play, text after text, because addicted to storytelling. It's not some kind of 1000 and 1 night, stories different, not every one of it I could tell in two nights time. It will be too good – write with such speed.
When I finish writing session, I put notes on board, what I need in next few scenes. I didn't stop empty. I need to know that have something to say next time and make pause for receive satisfaction of story itself. It help to be more creative for other session.
For me word count is daily victory, but I can't be focused only at that. I haven't aim to won from enemy – story. I think it's more like pair dance, sometimes faster, sometimes slower. Good when writer hear music of the story. My music would be “Che bella cosa e` na giornata 'e sole” (What a beautiful thing is a sunny day!) I wait for few days for sunny enough day to make more art. Here I also need some quantity to complete idea what I planned before.
First idea was to name blog post “Say something, don’t be shy”. Bit of crazy, really.
Even if I am multilingual writer – I have one personality, not many. So, time to time I could be lost during writing polylogue. When I check characters which were present in scene – I see that not everyone were active. Many was quiet, didn’t say something and was just for quantity.
When I wrote novels – I searched for photos for each character. It helped some way, but I add new characters and everything was just difficult. I change names and relationships with other characters. I know they all are “imagine friends” one step to “imagined love story” in romance writing. There I believe there are a lot of problems for writers also. Main hero is jerk, heroine just can’t understand what on his mind. Writer also lost in the middle of somewhere. (I cleaned computer from articles about romance writing and articles how to draw winter landscapes.)
And characters not all time talk. One or two start talking, I understand them better, add details and forget about others. Person can’t be focused on so many objects, I know. I need a story in conversation, not writer’s view in novel with lot of text.
During yesterday’s writing I even made pause to find a solution, what to do. Names on board are not enough. I can’t work with all of them on same level. I understand, why in TV series they have two to four suspects. But I need also people around, they are not lost in the desert. They can’t came to me, to be noticed.
I tried this solution.
Moved them like in game. It’s not solution. I need to think further.
I remembered that last year, when thought that it could be done, I buy little chess on magnets. I hadn’t time to chess, still need to figure out this game. It should help in writing, at least I read about it a lot. And like for chess I can’t also manage how to make space for all characters.
For polylogue I choose just checking all the time list of characters.
Someday I will find a solution, how to work with this little army. I always believe in possible solution. Like with motorbikes for play. I have colouring page – but in which colour. Without expert’s advice I will be too creative.
It was made instead of me, colourful. Tiny and perfect for my size of dolls.
I even check different games as inspiration to work with all characters. For now I just remind myself to remember that I have lot of characters. Of course in such moments I want write play for one character. It’s easy, but I write to create lot of characters. They are different and story has more colours.
Again I wrote a lot, and it helps in writing fiction.
At weekend main e-mails newsletters just have day off. So I read with interests people who write on Saturday and Sunday. Most of people don't write daily, but life is still daily. My rule stayed the same – the more I wrote, the more I write. News change, only weather forecast stay the same, even if not looks like what we have in reality.
It was article that no one cares about your work and it gives you whole freedom do what You want to do. Of course, on my mind came "A Little Less Conversation" by Elvis Presley. Yes, that “satisfy me”. Your work should be satisfaction for you. Good idea, the same I write in yesterday's post, that we should like process itself.
To this conclusion came all creative people. You know what is on your mind, you can't compare it with hopes of other people. They could like it, they could hate it. They didn't ask that should be done at all.
Yesterday I add details by pencil to my watercolour work. This details not to look like reference itself, it's for mine satisfaction, that painting is complete.
We return to main idea, that work, especially creative, should give to us power. Power to do it. Creative project I choose myself and it should be such interesting to me, that I will spend few hours writing scene by scene, just to find out what will be next. It's not a question that no one care, it's question if you care. What is important for you? Receive someone's nod or work till you be happy. If you are dissapointed with your work and have no idea what to do, no one will help you.
I have outlines, plane of story. I thought what to do with one scene, how to write it. It was frustrating, but I start write scenes which are before it. And I found solution – change place of scene and story flew.
When I write about plans, outlines, it will look like I like organizing. Not always, but sometimes it helps. Like yesterday I wrote scene and understand that lost one character. Counted few times, check notes. This character didn't come to story yet. This satisfied me, relief of not get lost inside own story.
If read articles – worst part of authors work is writing. Are you sure? You honestly wait with temptation and lust till you could complete your desire to revise finished text... It's my opinion, but you choose wrong profession. I wanted to be an editor, I changed my mind, because I see more advantages in process.
Writing is difficult – you create fictional story which wasn't before. It's amazing when you create something with characters who weren't exist before that.
It's like in painting – amazing process. Dirty one – my new must have are gloves.
It helps with big parts of work, when I feel mysef like I paint walls, because art is big and colourful. I had to made really big Tuscany's landsape to put all tiny actors on stage together. Now I can't show a photo, because dolls haven't costumes yet.
Advantage of our work is in this process, because it's creating. Even if you know how all finished, it's interesting.
I told that I like to know the end of the story or predict possible end. It's still interesting to read or watch movie. It's process of thinking, arguments. It's like reading or watching court dramas. You predict how it was at first place, then watch rest of movie to see acting or arguments which will use lawyers. I wrote somewhere that like all that lawyer's stuff, because I never could write proper court story. Law and procedure are difficult, but this strategy to invent arguments are always interesting, it's work of brain.
And all this suggestions how to finish novel, play, story quickly are absolutely wrong. Or should be. It's like quickly, at first, eat all chocolate and then month of bitter work. Now I try to write slowly, to feel satisfaction from work. I add new details, I need more research.
I spend yesterday looking for hotel plan which be useful for my play. Lot of editing made it finish product which I wanted. Was it necessary? No. It' s theatre it won't be plan of building like in film. But I want it, like in film. I want to know where each of them will live.
In preparation there are some advantages. You know your story, you find a freedom. It's like waves, you never know how beautiful will be next.
I draw this, because found that palm tree interesting, it was in searching for Tuscany landscapes references. It's advantage of process – you never know what you will find.
I read a lot articles about craft which make – writing. Near year ago I add to this reading about art. It give some ideas, I now understand how from one reference make colourful picture which you want.
Before I believed that people which paint such colourful landscapes just saw them in nature. Not always. It's like in film, add lot of details after. But here is most important not to lost actors during drawing whole story.
Actors are important part of story and now I am thinking how make my future actors different from each other, dolls are the same. I invent lot of characters, maybe left them the same costumes and change backdrops. Story didn't finished – and what is bother me now. Especially size of actors, they are tiny, but many. For now same costume is one solution.
I am about art. In one of the articles I read about that for artist is difficult to show own work on public. Can you tell me it before? I could never start drawing what I want.
Artist should be brave. How brave? I know some my pictures – are like made by child. But I try to show what I want to explain. The same with age at all. Articles inspire that age is not important, when you start to learn something new. Really? Age is only experience which gave you tiny chance to figure out how behave in one or other situation. But you will be sure in advance that life will invent chance for which your previous experience will be in zero help.
Be brave, open deep wishes which you believe was not for you. For me difficult not to agree with statements in such mood. At first was paint and after it I learned that could draw, before that never was such idea that I have it in my abilities. I like work with colours, happy when something could make. As result I am brave enough to show my works to public. Maybe I just like to communicate and use art as other possible language.
Be brave, take a chance. All this motivations are good. But they are not enough, you should do something. Try something, make step. I always afraid that spoil paper when I draw, but I try to make every piece unique, even when paint changed colour what was near. I try to be open, see and best prove that I need to start it at first place – when paint is dry. It finished, and after I complete it, I want to share it.
I believe in completed work, because I have sea of ideas for writing and I make next ship from papers which are near.
This is what I create from bad choice of colours. I name it - Northern Lights over the fjord. It's finished painting, because, like creator, I am brave enough to name it complete art work. Not all mistakes could be saved, but I always try this chance, no matter which is possible success percentage.
There is theory that we are products of our childhood and all what was important to us as kid, returns to our adult’s life. Could be.
When I searched for postcards for yesterday's post I checked this.
This is two box of collection, good that I found what I searched such quickly. In our family is habit to collect beautiful postcards, so are a lot of them, even if time to time we revise them.
And in that pile I found my deep roots of illustrations which I now make to plays.
Here they are, stories with dolls.
I liked them so much, when was a child. They are postcards, proper art form. Of course, it’s my inspiration and reason that you could use dolls even in adult life to storytelling.
Yesterday I made myself a holiday – spend day working on art. This landscapes such colourful comparing to what I see through window, it’s relaxing, but need long time to dry.
So I opened from where came my inspiration for not usual illustrations to theatre plays. All have easy explanation, complicated thing are not natural. Lot of thinking could invent reasons, but you just see what you like and think how to get it. Of course, if you want it, you make everything to complete your life with it.
Everything has own rules. I can’t draw with relaxing music as background, but they suggest it for art. I use bright colours, I need different music. With relaxing I just want to sleep. I found solution – dynamic music for night drivings, for driver to stay awake. Every art has own tune, it’s true. But at night absolutely different light, so difficult to make art. I also don’t believe in night writing or studying, it’s not for me. But all night ideas I always welcome.
Today I will add details to yesterday’s art. Theme of play is inspiring for painting and I like it.
International Women’s Day. In Ukraine is still battle to celebrate it or not. It's arguing for many years.
I liked when you receive flowers and attention. Men prised you work, said sweet nonsense. It was not connected with real reasons for day's history, it was day of beginning of Spring, some even symbolical celebration of end of the winter. Yes most important were sweets and perfumes. Good day, nothing to discuss.
Yesterday I started play. Wrote first six scenes, at least I start to see characters and their relationships. I like storytelling, it's such interesting work. After I start writing I see clearly next scenes.
It's my variation to Bond's soundtrack “You know my name”, “Casino Royale” 2006. Cruel song, if listen to text, but it's James Bond, licence to kill. I like inspired by cards video to that music, colourful. I even read a book. And some kind of cruelty is good for writing story with murder. Every mystery writer has such licence for harmless or not characters.
Like could be possible to guess – I named my characters. It's beginning of every story. I tried to put numbers, it's not for me. I need to know name and after it I see character. I choose names randomly with surnames, just try to remember that haven't such name and surname combination before. I definitely need to make some kind of list for my heroes, I don't remember all of them.
Name give chance to add backstory, it just works smoothly. Now I outline first act with thinking of who could be better suspect. I don't trust all of them, till didn't work with them in writing. So story will show who is who.
In inventing or choosing name I always sorry that English is not my native language, because some names give story of person when I worked on native languages.
To tell to character – I know your name – it's start to listen their story. And it's most interesting part of work – story creating. I have few ideas, something will go deeper, but all begins with name.
Names I have, so story began. Good job for start.
I returned to writing daily to write about my projects in details. About current project I can't write for now. First, I didn't start it. Second, I know who is victim, few suspects, but not all details. Third, I spend too much time researching how to draw landscapes. Fourth, I need at least first scenes to figure out if it will work. So, I could write about everything, not counting recent project.
Artists usually show their not finished product. It helps to understand which steps were made, which solutions ended with what. It gives feelings that work has steps, not was made by one inspiration session which lasted twelve hours and ended in new concept art.
I don't like to rewrite texts, I agreed to revision, no more. But in text I need to know who tells what. It's not a plan, it's road map which helps not to get lost. Because of that I refused to work on few stories simultaneously, even add lines or ideas.
It is like with painting work – I tried to make it few at once at one board, if was enough place. Reason was that I use the same colour, so for what. It's not for me I need to give attention to one project, so on big board is tiny A5 paper at which I work from start to finish and than put dry. No matter that I return to same colours at next painting. It is not for me, I need one to one conversation with my work, it's only way to see all details, deepness which paper or screen reference could propose to me. Art, work on piece of art is not a party, is one to one talk, it is only possibility to listen and be heard. Such way I see details, like commas in conversation.
My problem is in speed of my writing. I met my characters and like talk in train, bus, try to learn something interesting, something basic. I don't spend months with each character to find out which favourite book they have in childhood or cartoon. I met them, like reader, in some point of the story and learn them like every new person, began from name.
I prize writers which for few years invents all turning points for characters which they know like siblings. I never know what wait from whom, they didn't write me letters with their plans for future, even for few scenes.
With interesting characters I try to be in touch and time to time return to them. It's not usual for playwriting, but common in storytelling.
My main problem in writing mysteries is current level of technology. My aim is to cut technology and give opportunity for mind work. And it shouldn't be absolutely stupid.
I don't like write bad reviews, but I can't be quiet. It was one of my favourite TV series few years, even with changes of main heroes. “Death in paradise” BBC 6 season, 8 episode. Are they testing level of stupidity of audience. Were not good episodes, but with wit you could save everything. It's island, but may I ask – writer at least once in life time visited election? To mystery we make all predictable, but after it reader, audience should feel satisfaction, not disappointment. And thoughts how not sound like dull person helps to create possibilities which should be believable. Writer should try it – think or read again what was written. There were chances to make this story interesting, but nothing was used. If problem is in sun, use experience of screenwriters from LA, they managed to survive this circumstance.
Yes, I invent for story reason how to cut inernet for my characters. Cruel job of writer – we should do to our characters, what don't want to be done to us. Without internet I feel myself like with brush and without paint. I wanted to write at first vice versa, but in time remembered about drawing with fingers.
Creative process has own steps, and process of thinking is time, when you can't show you work and only you know this exists already.
Yesterday was good weather and I went in the art shops. Just wanted to check prices and what will be possible to add to my treasures. Winter was not for art to me, but I need to live further.
I understand why art is so expensive, materials are not cheap and sometimes just costs too much.
Spring is time not only to fall in love and make plans, but it's also time to buy new paint. How many artists in art shops at Saturday. During winter they probably use everything. But after acknowledge of prices they choose colours by numbers not in big kits.
I bought pencil-case for brushes, definitely on sale, because it was last item. Yes, in this shops I even could feel myself real artist and all that colours, tubes, they inspiring.
Were few art students, my favourite character to observation. Usually they are girls. They return to cashier few times, because change their mind and saw what bought or want to buy other girl. In this pauses you have time to ask questions from shop assistant, choose what you want and bought what you want. One girl choose ball (figure for drawing), such meticulously, like planned to marry it in future. Too doubtful, if you want this item – say I do, and after think how to settle down. I said I do to few watercolor pencils, respectful brand, I can't resist, I for a long time dreamed about and didn't refuse possibility.
It is best way in this shopping bought something little, necessary and not expensive. You feel that you did something, you check everything and have something new to work with. It gives you emotions, inspiration, it's important. Even little step could change your working routine. New ideas comes to mind, new solutions for drawing. Problem that for now I am not sure how to do what is on my mind. Where is a wish, will be a way.
I don't open something new if tell that art is dirty business. Before write about that more detailed, I have one statement. “For people who recognized from first sight in my previous art works – Toscana's landscapes – art degree in abstract art from me with lots of love.”
Dirty part of art is art needs lot of cleaning after you finish it. Awful amount, till water will be without all paints which you used. Cleaning brushes and changing all the time water don't helps a lot. After each session I spend half an hour to made all clean. Real swimming pool of water, but for swimming pool there are better use than cleaning brushes.
I understand why artists at some moment just stop do it. It boring, not creative and it's better when all paints on pallete look like same colour. It's creative inspiration. Or should be that way.
I can't even think about oil – it dry really long and brushes, it's difficult to clean them.
I can't name myself an artist, maybe like hobby in support for writing job, but... How all the time depictured artists, how artists took photos, especially women. Correct, long hair on shoulders, brush in hand and crazy glance, fine – inspired glance. How they managed that? I could work only with top knot made from hairs and remade it few times, if strand of hair tickle my neck. Yes, I turn head to look at reference. I don't know how they made it.
And masking tape which I use to handle a paper on surface. I only for moment look at other direction and it began to unstuck. Of course it wet, not finished paint and in big danger of spoil whole work. I put it to dry and when paint is dry it's impossible to unstuck it from paper, like it was cemented and it left marks on paper.
Watercolor – no matter that it's most difficult material to work with – I like it. Main reason – in good paint – without strong smell. Dries really fast. Bad it could be spoiled without much attention to water. For me it's technique with freedom. In childhood we started to draw with it and no one told – it's difficult. And it's without using force to sharp all the pencils. Watercolour pencils are much softer and more expensive, but you create, not tired.
What I try to say – you really should love art to be ready work with all that inconveniences and took time to clean it all after your creative process.
First intention was to write post about art, but I checked calendar. Today is writer’s day.
How to celebrate? Spill ink to each other. I didn’t mention taping machines. What a times it was. Even if I’ll sound terribly old, (age is not numbers, but feelings of your soul – like insists one wise and young in heart woman), but I work on them. Switch language like in computer wasn’t possible. So I still have one with Ukrainian and other with Russian alphabet. I just can’t throw them away – my working instruments, I can’t. How it was terrible with mistakes and letters which could not properly worked at first place. But sound – especially sound of the end of the line – you heard and everyone around you, heard that you are working. And like all dreams came true – possibility to work on electric one. No I didn’t work on clay tablets, but tried to work with goose feather and ink – messy.
Writer is not only instruments. Like wrote in all motivation book – you should believe yourself that you are a writer. Cool. What you write is important for you. Applauds. And I could go in such way without stop. I understand people come to that like to unexpected in their life. I wrote non-fiction as journalist, now I write fiction as playwright. Stop – blog is still non-fiction. Nothing changed, nothing to talk about.
Writer – you tell a story, people listen. If think – it’s huge responsibility. Like in that quote “Books could change your life”. They could and do that all the time. But writer have some freedom – write everything. On books, stories aren’t caption “During writing this book no one or nothing were hurt.” It would be awful lie. In my case in every text hurt English grammar and vocabulary. Hope people aren’t hurt, maybe only their tender grammar feelings.
And that write person who likes and writes mysteries. It’s different, rules of genre, it’s not my revenge. I am really peaceful creature if you don’t wake me up in 3 o’clock in the morning, because taxi doesn’t want to wait. But here we all get angry. When I am angry, I can’t write good mystery, because it’s not real work, it’s something which is important for therapeutically reasons.
Writer is profession, where we could tell invented stories and people think that it’s proper work. Like in acting, adoration from public for pretending – dream job.
Good that writers convinced everyone that we are important for entertainment, and for entertainment people are ready for everything.
My thoughts about art will be in next post, writer’s day will finish at that time.
Hmm it's quotation of my conversation from one of sites for writers where you should enter your e-mail.
It began that way “Hmm, are you sure that your e-mail correct. Should it be .ca?” Why Canada? I received correction of mail with suggestions of Australia and Austria. Here we have at least common letters. How machine knows that some months ago I draw daily maple leaves?
And all my work in English internet is proving that I am not a robot, now it's hmm. What would be next? Of course, it's not comparable with one slogan from other of sites. “Sorry, you are really in Ukraine?” How I could answer to this? It's still inhabited land or thank you for empathy?
Now I will sing lullaby to Neo and will talk about benefits of Matrix.
All my drawing inspirations. Artist called them references.
Only references could help to see what is far away from you.
Later add some details. And it became finished work. What else you could want? Knowledge and experience of other people like good conversation, it adds strength and inspiration to work.
Today is first day of Spring and I have intention to be back on track. Daily posts. I need that daily routine. Circumstances had serious impact, but now I think it's time to be back.
Like was announced I made tiny story and upload it today. It began from idea to write something for children. I draw picture, than I understand it's fairy tale for adults.
Reading of children literature could be dangerous to own sanity. There is advice to writers read what had wrote other writers. Problem that I read like adult reader. And after some of masterpieces I try to imagine picture, dangerous habit. Quotation without author’s name, because of respect to other person’s work. “Daddy is a dolphin, Mummy is a snail, Grandma is a starfish, Grandpa is a whale.” Poor baby, I don’t even ask – how?
As planned I am back to work. Next play will be about painters. Illustrations for it I will add to each post since tomorrow.
I need art to clear my mind. Lot of things to think about, many projects, so I began from art. For me it’s still amazing that I could do it. Who could predict? I don’t believe in art like helpful devise to make decisions. When I paint I am absolutely in process. Maybe, because I am not sure of result.
Decisions should be made quickly, sometimes on emotions, even if you aren’t brave enough to say it aloud, because all will disappear. Brain could be nervous even when answer is yes, because it’s unknown. Yes, it’s about myself. I still afraid every time when start new drawing project. Am I sure that is possible to make? What I see and which result it will have on page. Art is like feelings, difficult to play on public.
With writing I find myself. How, which could all be done? It’s like with car or motorbike, you know your instrument and just want to try which speed you could archive.
I have parts of dialogues for next text. But I think it’s not necessary for writer feel herself/himself a fictional character like Pedro Carmichael (Tune in Tomorrow... 1990). But for all - writer is person, whom perfectly played Peter Falk. It gives some charm to our profession, isn’t it?
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