Scary me cozy…
Attempt to accept.
Short short fiction experiments.
Time for “donate” button.
Мертві бджоли не гудуть.
Long story short.
Pleasures of country’s debts.
For story, to which I want to add art objects, I decided to plus one more suitable character. It’s secondary character from my old mystery novel draft. Without writing novels I use characters as extras to new projects, sometimes they became more important persona in new creation.
When reread old stories, you see them different. You just surprised that many ideas which were already there – interest to theater and art connected characters, later became part of creative journey. The same is with hours of flipping through interior design magazines became part of set design activity for my plays.
Probably one thing which stops me from attempts to write mystery short stories series is my pictures to stories. Should I use the same amount of pictures as for plays and made something near comics? It could traumatize readers imagination, a lot.
Mystery drafts and outlines I have everywhere, the same as watch them frequently. Also many my plays have mystery solving part. I should decide – accept it or deny of such writing style. As other option exist idea to make bunch of plays in which all characters will be new each time, but something in main investigator will remain same. Or each time give chance to be smart for different characters from story.
Read other drafts during working on new one not the best idea. Probably I am not believer in multitasking. Main idea on my mind is about alternative universe without noises of endless repair and mute piano for unskillful people. Sometimes I just can’t think, so puzzle solving activity became challenge.
Monday was productive and creative for me. Since morning I was busy making art objects.
I mentioned about mystery connected with art gallery some time ago. As I refused from novels, I didn’t want to put long descriptions of art objects in short story. I wanted to make pictures. Honestly I searched what to do with it.
As solution come some kind of reboot or returning to what I did before. That’s correct. If I invented idea as play, it better be written as theatre play, everything else is emotion.
So I started make art, in my style.
Characters quantity will depend of my results. Also I have no idea where to put plot – I have templates of NY and Paris. In play streets locations are not necessary writer’s knowledge. I changed my mind, it’s part of creative journey.
In afternoon was heavy rain and thunderstorms. When it was possible, I checked name for my art. Google tired me with questions to prove that I am human, because my search question looks suspect. Of course, I asked them from Ukraine, at least I have chance with captcha. On others site usually access denied or IP blacklisted, even if I visited them before. Especially it’s disgusting, if I receive their newsletters. Don’t build firewalls against enemies, they are already inside or will came by other road.
Hyper realism usually is not my choice in art, this time it was the same.
If you want you could find differences between my art and chess from one to sixteen. I see what I see and I am sure in my perception.
Other results of art sessions I will post later.
Today is Friday. Morning was busy with unpleasant time, but I wanted to publish some micro fiction – 51 words, to forget about it.
I love words, the same as I love languages. In every situation I found word which bring inspiration to me and I start to write. I like crazy words, I cherish and collect them.
Every day is worse than previous, because find out something new. New genocide of Ukrainian nation started, by idea of our politics for make happy International Monetary Fund.
Our country made debts and now by payment to international prices we will make happy IMF. Sound right and necessary – to return money which were stolen by corruption by cost of people who are guilty that were born and still live in our dearest Ukraine.
Smiles, official photos and big lies about international standards inside our country. Our country didn’t want to say that became bankrupt. Pay this debt is impossible for pure country with weak government with all high management.
IMF doesn’t care that social payment didn’t changed for few years and if were made bigger, for price equivalent less than few dollars during year. Idea of closing and making less quantity of schools and high education universities is also from IMF. It looks like from our country prepared potential slaves, knowing reading and writing are also not necessary, it could bring idea of rebellion to empty minds.
There is crazy explanation that such way is “selling” territory of our country to more wealthy parts of world. Yes, problem is only people. So now is endless work to destroy this human ballast. They work hard to made it in nearest future.
Ukrainian politics never will agree to that, but they do the same as was made in Soviet Union, all money which we have in banks we lost in one day. To bring personal example in 1991 year, when this happened, on my personal bank account was money to buy one room flat. It was father’s idea to give me some freedom when I became older and could made own decisions. As compensation from independent Ukraine, near ten years ago, I received money equivalent to 10$. Impressive starting capital for own flat, don’t you think?
The same story with grandfather’s family, when came Soviet Union his family lost forest, also territory where was later found granite and amber. From house as biggest was made school, family was on street in the cold winter. Water mill became government property. Grandfather later lost all his family in Holodomor.
I didn’t say that this is something new, but this years also will be written as worst in Ukrainian’s history. They change bills and now is debt for previous months which we paid once before. Probably idea is to make more people homeless or dead after payment – money for food wasn’t in ideal plan of IMF. Guilty is people who agree for this in change to left personal business untouched.
I write this because still believe in freedom of speech, it’s not popular idea in our country and I could receive warning for that. I already receive bills, at least I should say that not agree to that.
Was such cartoon – map of Europe, instead of Ukraine is big sea. Probably I am wrong, but tap with water already opened.
Yesterday I wrote about “donation” idea to support my on-line existence as free for reading library of texts.
Long story short, I today was in the bank. There were proposed more interesting options and now I have two option to receive donation from my readers.
Was endlessly lot of papers printed and signed, printer need time to publish all that, but everything also was on perfect level and polite.
What I have now is two cards from Ощадбанк.
First one is for Ukrainian money – гривні.
Second one is for not Ukrainian money from around the world.
I added pdf with all necessary information from bank.
Thank you for understanding, future of my creative project depends from your support. Who have opportunity, please donate.
Anonymity I guarantee if won't be other preferences from persons.
Reading is still free.
Так вже склалося, що пишу пости рідною мовою коли зовсім на нервах. Не складаються в мене в речення англійські слова.
Нововведення в державі йдуть повним ходом, коли чуєш про них, то здається що це новини з божевільні. Закон, постанови Кабміну порушуються щоденно і всі мовчать. Правильно “очі долу” та “копати бульбу” як національна ідея.
Дякувати Богу освітні витребеньки мене не стосуються, бо немає своїх дітей. Але підручники як привід для жартів залишаються. Всі ці ЗНО та інші тортури чуєш в транспорті. Ідея з маршрутками де можна тільки стояти прийшла в голову людині, якій щось важке впало по макитрі.
Політика соціального знущання в найкращих традиціях маркіза де Сада. Перевірка складу родину через “обшук” приміщення соціальними працівниками? Ми в державі чи у вʼязниці з такими ідеями, що обговорюються скрізь.
Підвищення та отримання пенсій це вшанування їхнього пращура Попандопало “це знову тобі” з не менш помітним впливом Остапа Бендера але з отриманням стільців спочатку.
Мертві бджоли не гудуть, це я про вичавлений народ над яким знущаються. Але трохи надія є. Ви помічали скільки банерів зі знайомими та незнайомими обличчями? Вибори як і чергова зміна влади вже поряд. Зараз країні не до цього, але руки сверблять поставити хрестик, коли бачиш нові підвищені рахунки за все. Держава трохи захопилась відбираючи всі гроші в населення, ви так до кріпацтва дійдете.
Невміння вести перемовини це гірше ніж вада мови. І кількість ворогів у нас збільшується, друзів нажаль катма.
For some time life in Ukraine wasn’t best or easiest. I was crazy enough to believe that something could change for better. Today I received bills – better won’t be ever.
I still believe that play, before it staged should be read for free, so I am against fee for reading. I all day searched how it could be managed, to find money to stay present on-line. I found out that many sites have such amazing “donate” button to which people could send money equivalent to cup of coffee.
In Ukraine all the time changed banks, so better will be to open account in Ощадбанк. It depends, but if everything will be fine and after all papers signed, I will receive account in July or beginning of August. Then I add donate button, because that’s what do everyone – search money for their projects.
Like I mention endless times, I failed with writing novels. But at the same time I experimented with other writing forms.
What should be done if you can’t write novel for 300 pages? Write instead something extremely short.
Today I publish stories, length of which are from 26 to 115 words, so it could be named short short fiction or flash fiction or micro fiction. And they are absolutely contrary in mood.
Today I changed fotos on ua and eng indexes of site.
After new haircut I made creative foto session.
Since beginning of this year I tried to do what I believed should be done – write a novel, real novel. It’s just must have of any writer’s season. I didn’t manage and was disappointed.
Now what I have is attempt to accepts situation which I can’t change. I knew that won’t be easy from first time. I thought problem was in my level of English. I jumped back to reading my drafts in native languages. I saw there complicated plot, not bad descriptions and action driven stories. They could be easy remade to scripts, because I show, not explain inner feelings of characters. Movies are in my list “I will think about that tomorrow”, as Scarlet did.
And I published little poem and after I wrote one more and one more. In trying to write novel I forget how I loved little form of poems, how they always brought me joy. Poem could be written about everything and you feel that told that was on your mind. In other hand it’s always fiction, but blended mainly with your emotions, not based on knowledges.
Probably I will attempt to accept that I could survive without finished novel in my CV. Illusions have power, but main problem when it’s not your dreams. I just read that it should be made such way and logic suggested that novel is more real than writing scripts. Solution without movies I already had – writing plays. Probably my plays are too much “my”, overweighted with images and how I see everything. It could be read as suggestions from playwright during play rehearsal or slow motion movie with lines to be read as subtitles.
With every genre as with every person relationships are different. What was not in your attention could became sudden unbearable pain with which you try to live further. You will notice that long ago you made choices and now you just have to return there, because it’s still not accomplished aim. Like not for every feeling there is name, the same is genres in which we work. My plays writing it’s different from other people experience, probably it could be accepted.
Now I feel necessity to add pictures to poems, they need colours. Two new poems I add to this post poem 2.pdf poem 3.pdf
I named play “Scary me gently” and now I named post – scary me cozy, because it’s how I feel.
I wrote long ago that had idea about one more mystery plot connected with culinary. I thought it won’t be worst idea to write cozy mystery about it, probably adding there images of cakes. I entered Pinterest and I searched about such kind of books covers. I was washed away with amount of variations on that theme. Not count of other sweets which could bring danger. Did I mentioned ice-creams? It’s best anti advertisement for every sweet tooth.
Post is about cozy novel writing fear. What new I could add there? One more idea how to put poison in the cake to be precise? Also scary in cozy mysteries enthusiasm with which main character meets new corpses. When I add this moment in play – it’s clear that’s theatre and actor/actress will bow in the end. Death it’s not fun or not fun to level which they describe. I retold few people which are new rules in our country about papers connected with funeral. Still I have chills about police document which I signed about grandfather, “corpse description”, I lived in same address, so it was easy for police to put my name in document. Dear cozy writers, it’s not fun in any reality and death couldn’t be pleasant experience if you are sane in some level.
When you read mysteries or watch them, you don’t care about writer’s personality or life, you just solve puzzle of some kind. When you are writer yourself you start wondering if it’s fit you, how comfortable is this for you. Solving puzzles is attractive, so maybe I have problems with level of sweetness in cozy.
For sure distract nagging thoughts when I reread every draft. Why I try to describe every room, if it will be enough one sketch? Why I put it on prose if there are dialogues ready for play? Why I think it’s important to be staged before write next text for stage? I haven’t all answers.
One unusual effect had this playing in coziness. When I made sketch, I returned to activity which stopped few years ago. Yes, I wrote little poem.pdf Here it is with sketches which inspired it.
First days of summer, real heat, wonderful.
As I write before, I deleted “Future projects notebook” and previous month blog’s posts. There were too much emotions, creative struggles, all in trash. I want something new, maybe change attitude to my creative process. It always was pleasant for me and endless searching almost destroy it.
Now is sunny day, no matter that in evening promised thunderstorms. I want some positive thoughts.
I really liked all shabby chic photo session. All that is fun, not trying to jump over own head. For everything should be own time. When I wrote something with lot of heart and try to prove some level of abilities it became difficult experience, not storytelling.
Maybe I should try something lighter and give myself chance to cozy mysteries. Probably, when I change genre it will also make my life cozier or it will help to make different lighting to perception of daily life.
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