 In my power. Tittle-tattle. Path. Unresolved issue. Preparation. Notes. Right to silence. Secret locker. Yes or no? Necessary words. Mobility. Crumpled thoughts. Change of seasons. Dracula’s busy night. One-to-one session. Extrovert! Me? Daily writing. Spooky night. Few lines. Autumn vibes-3. Checking gaps. Popular colour. Incomparable experience. Busy Sunday. Get to the fuel station. Handwriting. Evening thoughts. Upside down pyramid. Walk on the roofs. Autumn vibes-2. Difficult topic. Autumn vibes. Projects potential. Nobel prize of literature + micro. Glimpse at calendar. Weather Forecast 2050. Retyping. Some air. Mission possible. Pumpkins up. 13 November, 2019 No matter in which mood, after which dream I woke up our news will help in adding negative in every day. As remedy I already use English to avoid our reality. When I think, read, write, even learn grammar in English I build wall around all that disappointment. In news is most interesting that difficult to choose what scares most – reform of sale of land, groundlessly enormous bills and prices for everything, or changes in the law of media. Here we have free will to choose most important problem. In this situation I think most of all we show our character. We try to pretend that everything is okay and we believe that will manage all miraculously. Again repeat my favorite joke. “Not good building and it should be shown to the owner. No matter happen, say that was on plan, - says main builder. Owner comes and wall near him fails. Other builder says - 10.28 just on plan.” It could be named stupidity, but I could say that’s power of inner shame. Shame for what? We have everything: people, amazing land, beautiful cities, rich history. And as result – we don’t know what to do with it, how to do with all this. We have such a lot of possibilities, that use no one of them. In general it’s understandable that’s wrong in total. We just like descendants of generations which gain wealth and we don’t have same character and in result, drop by drop all is gone. We try to create Europe, but something all the time goes in other direction. We know different languages, because it’s comfortable. We try to change how we see the world, but it rare works. We want to be in news, but headlines which we received is not about what to be proud. I don’t particularly believe in plans. I know, no matter what everything is changes. I just write day after day, because it’s all I can do in my power, it’s all that make sense in such circumstances, it’s all what is under my control. Idea of today’s text came to my mind yesterday, when I saw this on the street. As usual, my mind created explanation to this story. So today is mini cinematic story.  P.S.: Now check news about land sale reform. In general it’s worst script for country's future. There are some events, that after which nothing will be the same again. Politics don’t know shame, but if it was real person relationship – there are moments which you could live trough, but never forgive. In country now it’s difficult situation and when someone consciously made it worse and without doubts believe that everything still is fine it’s wrong position. + Returned at home and found out that law about land sale supported. Next in plans probably will be changes in the law of media. Hope it won't make quicker necessity to write only in Ukrainian on sites with UA domen. *** At the end of the day could say that again was too involved in the blog in our politic. Such emotions change nothing, they are wrong. Good government should just work, not be main in news. Yes, spending evening with good movie and after that a bit of Pinterest, that’s what necessary. Maybe most appropriate form of my thoughts is dialogue as power of real conversation? Words are always call of action. 12 November, 2019 Today I decided to write post in the morning, probably it could prevent of inventing new text during day. I mention that endlessly times, but I start day from radio. Our radio content changed a lot in recent years. What we have on politic analytic resembles talk of few not enough educated people (based on their choice of words) on the kitchen and knowing how to solve everything and all is damned in short. And other part on radio are over energized hosts of morning show. I believe that they drink all coffee around them, they are happy when is sun, rain, snow and thunder on the same level. They talk, tell jokes, sometimes even good and put music. Music here are most of questions. Why in the morning such amount perfect for slow dance in the dusk songs? When you till late night watched movie with songs, at the morning you want something dynamic also. I don’t insist that should be “I Love Rock 'N' Roll”, but definitely something to woke up. I tried use special workout music, but I get tired of the same songs one after another, because of this I search for surprises on radio. Something that worth attention, and give inspiration and rhythm to body moves. 11 November, 2019 After yesterday’s confession of refusing French, today I decided check one more skill that I also not spend enough time lately to improve. I returned to sketching on white board. Time to time I like to scary my readers with my drawing. Today I tried article about perspective.    Normal people usually receive just sketches, if we talk about me, I made strange micro, because what I draw I saw as story. As you notice, I decided to left poster just black and white. I believe in enormous power of black and white. Sometimes color could only destroy something. I already told that numerous time, about coloring movies which were made specially such way. Who don’t remember, remind that was about my favorite film about WWII, aviation and Ukraine in general. В бой идут одни старики (Only old men are going to battle) 1973. If search it even has English subtitles on YouTube. And here is micro.  P.S.: Few more hours worked with doodling, this time won't be fotos to not over traumatize readers. But I think this skill as visual language I will left to future improvement. 10 November, 2019 Yesterday was day of Ukrainian language and I was almost ready, but couldn’t write text on Ukrainian. I don’t want again to return to complains and darkness, I don’t want to write about our f**abulous politic and economics and perspectives. Just don’t ready. I want to work and create texts in English. It’s complicated as relationship with relative to the level of blood bounds. No one could propose solutions. No one has right to opinion. It’s your feelings and your decision. You just accept or not all in complex. I am not agree with everything what hear around. I know it looks like “divorce” with language and here is main if cost of returning to “ex main writing language” is proper. I know that with Ukrainian I will have complications, now it’s difficult time in problematic age: new spelling and grammar rules. I know it’s possible to spend some time and figure out, read new grammar book or check myself on the new test which will be for schools. I understand how to make it if necessary, it’s not unique experience, it’s through what lived others around me. With foreign languages which also part of my headache is also complicate, but much easy. I tried to made further step with French and enter to the level of monolingual dictionary. I failed to the level that start thinking is it such necessary for me now such knowledge of this language or Paris is not always better decision for setting? I am thinking and doubting to the level make a pause. When I after long pause returned to Polish and monolingual dictionary it was easiest step. I think I won’t be ready to write winter connected stories till snow and I didn’t want snow again. If I decide to write something Christmas oriented could add there as setting London and add mystery which always happens in English literature during snow. 9 November, 2019 I planned to write new text for kids, I didn’t manage and instead publish from that this micro.  8 November, 2019 Notes – such way I named one of my rubric years ago. Such way I see my writing not fictional texts. Today won’t be new text, it’s good news I think so. Now in newsletters is more and more popular idea of internet dieting as could it be named probably. When people are proud of that they refuse checking social media in special days and spend less time on-line. It’s more than a fresh idea, if you have to do something else in your life. My main love is still Pinterest, it comes not every day and I think it’s enough new pictures for me daily from social media. Instagram is complicated and I don’t think that now it takes so much time. Check one address and see what is new, much better, dream come true. Of course all this problems are with good on-line connection, when it present in low quality you just spend whole time checking mail, because spam always has time for you and writes daily. Maybe it’s not idea about refusal, just for priority. What is not your interest – there is bottom unsubscribe, what is important you just try to find out more. Refusing noise is smart idea, but sometimes it is difficult to make borders. Spam usually doesn’t interested in your opinion. 7 November, 2019 Ideas are everywhere and because of this today’s micro.  To poster used cars, but it could be bikes, bicycles or bees with same possibility. Everything what could moves. And yes, I think I returned to idea - write fiction instead of post. Clues to invent stories are everywhere, just change form and use imagination. 6 November, 2019 Rainy morning, today in Pinterest were amazing vintage perfume bottles and inspired with that I wrote a little play. As I told yesterday, there are themes about which I write over and over again. So before text about perfumes I just quote myself. This first time appeared in the blog 3.02.2015: "...It’s easy to notice that I like to write about what I know. And I’m very stressful when my knowledge is not useful for write some story. To finish conversation about all essential things, I need to mention only about fragrance. It’s my weakness. And instead of chocolate isn’t high-calorie. My liking of fragrances began in childhood. Two my grand-mothers had great collections of different perfume. One of them didn’t like it, second granny can’t use because she was a surgical nurse. Mummy has calm feeling to all that. When everyone knew that I like fragrances all of them was given to me. I was enormous happy and to the end of school I used all perfume which came to my hands. Than were mother’s French fragrances, father’s gifts. Litres of toilet water. Lately I agreed with myself that better to have good perfume, not army of bottles with fake. Decision was difficult but process of chose enjoyable. Good perfume is luxury if remember that in our shops it costs three time much than in shops in all over the world. I made my choice and decided to have what I really want. Backstage is in everything. In my country with strange law exist shops where you can buy testers which never came to destined shop. Don’t tell anybody. It costs half of price of original. Yes, I did it.  My favourite and adorable Cinema Eau de Toilette Spray by Yves Saint Laurent. Smell which brings me joy, smell which helps to remember that I’m still alive in country of mourning and tears. Smell of dream. Smell in which I like to wake up in the morning. It’s not for everyday use. I didn’t regret that I chose that one. I even had a discount on it. How? Translated to shop-girls names of all French perfume. They had knowledge I have my bottle. Why bother with all this? Better chose fake and stop talk. I know, it just like with photo and real person. You can tell thousands words in emptiness instead of just nod as agreement to person who is near you." More I found, was addition to that 11.09.2016. "Yes, when I don’t write fiction I write about fiction. “Secret obsession”, it’s like fragrance from Calvin Cline. Is there proper fragrance for writers? Guilty return for my favourite theme. I could stop here, but it won’t be me. Of course “Gucci Guilty” in golden bottle, best fake fragrance which could remind original from everything that I bought. It was times when I after finishing one bottle I bought next. Even shop assistant knew that they were my favourite. Then shop was closed and I tried to choose different fragrance. Yes, on market wasn’t proper tester, so my one and only love you know, still the same." Like every woman, I had past in fragrances, difficult to remember all of them, could forgot something, but mainstream of hobby is clear. Hope this weakness won't be used against me.  Secret locker.pdf 5 November, 2019 Post inspired by today’s weather. First half of the day I was busy in some stuff walking from one place to another. And all my thoughts was back to one – should or shouldn’t I took an umbrella. I didn’t take it, because was sunny. Dark clouds returned and I thought that better could be with umbrella. Next sunshine I was happy that didn’t take it with myself. It repeated few times. The same with my blog posts. I could write them daily, not sure about three times a day, two is possible. What for? Should I play in some kind of conversation with reader? It’s never real conversation, because when you put it on-line no matter how quiet, it’s few dozens of messages with which you should compete for attention. Question is yes or no. Should I put posts between texts or not? If should, won’t it be repeat of what I already said hundred times, when talk about projects which didn’t work out, for reasons I repeated over and over again. Of course, it’s practical idea to return to previous projects. But with refused projects it’s bricks looks for builder. Yes, it still sounds as nonsense. There are projects which I shouldn’t pay attention even for a moment, it ended in the trash no matter what. There could be explanation that I was misinformed, didn’t find the truth, was terrible decision in difficult time and had motives that better not say aloud. Yes, there were projects of which I never could be proud no matter which efforts gave to accomplish it before throw away. Have I to say something else? For sure, for hours of endless listener’s patience during cup of tea or something stronger. I just think that not everything should be published. About new project, no matter how exited I am I try to say about it when everything is ready to publish. Sometimes I just don’t believe in plans, what worked is always joyful surprise for me. 4 November, 2019 In the morning I prefer workout while listening to the radio. Find out news, weather and some music. Also there are a lot of advertisement opening new shops and sales, sales. So that advertisements and let’s say romantic songs was such combined that in the end of workout I had idea of the new play.  Necessary words.pdf 3 November, 2019 Quiet Sunday’s morning, I looked through props and had idea for new micro. To Sunday I always left newsletters with interesting stories or beautiful pictures it helps to change mind from daily routine. Sometimes could be found really interesting, surprising and unknown before bit of information, which could know years ago. So I always wait for such revelations. There are other news which insisted that I check. As result - why I should care about them if that no more my interest.  P.S.: Of course, after rereading of micro could be noticed that there should be some script. But here I have double problem - there aren't proper dolls to put inside plane or plane proper to putting inside dolls. So movie didn't worked and I tried to be endlessly creative for illustration. Hope any pilot's soul was hurted after all I made with toy. 2 November, 2019 Finally landed near computer. At the morning was solved yesterday’s glitch with paid bills. After that I was again helper in the kitchen. Hope it won’t hurt feelings of vegans, but it was chicken with mushrooms. After mushrooms clean the hands and life goes on, but I also cut to tiny pieces garlic and I am sure that still have tiny aroma of it near my fingers. From rain in the morning day ended in almost sunny evening. Never believe weather forecast or weather forecast at weekend. It’s like with plans, they exist, but should be done no matter in which conditions. As extrovert I could manage to write about anything, but sometimes it’s difficult to formulate thoughts. What I have to do or not to do to make it works? Maybe such thoughts because of my level in writing. I know that still not know enough, not all my information is organized properly and I need a lot to be explained. I am here, daily, try to figure out next step and sometimes it looks like doubts, but it’s gathering experience. I heard that if there is a wish, will be found way. 1 November, 2019 Stuff from which I had today’s headache I didn’t mention, it needs time, but could be solved. Yesterday’s newsletters were full of pumpkins and coffins and from today everywhere are Christmas trees. Not in every country celebrate Thanksgiving, so total concentration on the winter. At first I planned to make in November more autumn stories. In Ukraine it’s Листопад, month which named after leaves falling. Today is 101 year since ЗУНР and more than 20 something years since day when I decided to choose writing as my profession. I was still at school, after celebrating in the center I went to the open meeting with journalists and started to went to school of young journalists. Professionally write since that time. What to do with autumn stories? Bunch of them I refused at the end of August and wasn’t time when I regret it. October was such warm and wonderful that better if will be to be continued in such style. Should I skip autumn and enter in winter’s stories? Here I haven’t lack of ideas, just some border because of our language law. Before that law, as was in Fortinbras I could use language of Norway. After law it’s not language of EU, so technically forbidden. Was such easy – want to add drama, put action in fjord. Want to add beautiful view – Stavanger (Preikestolen). I know that snow is in France, Italy, Austria and Switzerland, but Norway a little colder for such stories. Pity that couldn’t solve this problem with Danish, there aren’t mountains for dramatic plot. As always there are plans and will be texts which be written out of order. 31 October, 2019. Started morning with a smile and plan just read on English and didn’t write new fiction. But later checked news and 10s text this month, again play. In our news today I saw link and watched trailer of new Dracula. What the Țepeș? Was my first thought. I watched it few times, nuns with sticks... It was emotional for me. You get it, I started laughing. I knew that could be done nothing, brain started to work in this direction and I invented new story about Dracula. As always in my interpretation. If you want could accept this story as sequel to my first story about Dracula.  Dracula’s busy night.pdf 30 October, 2019. New text, invented yesterday evening, wrote and publish today. Halloween is still to come, so decided to play with cartomancy. Some time ago had idea to write contemporary fantasy, wanted to make main character a witch. Time to time had text with some witches, I think it’s interesting character. Didn’t want to research for this text, so here cards mainly as props, without any meaning. It’s noticeable at the poster. In the beginning wanted to make it more resembles cartomancy, but decided it too much. (Yes, results of googling are overwhelming to this topic). A little bit confused which reading is on which cards and in the end made character gypsy. When I all day busy writing fiction usually is laconic post.  One-to-one session.pdf P.S.: Evening workout took my breath away and I remembered that forget to mention that added text in the plays. 29 October, 2019. First half of the day “played” in gardener. Needed quickly new flower pot to save plant. It wasn’t such easy to find something not for orchids. I don’t know why, but this flower became extremely popular. Soil is also mainly for orchids. To me this flower is strong association with Nero Wolfe. I know that is out of season as was repeated to me in different shops. Should be some schedules to flower pot when is more suitable to broke? In the end I found white one, among endless violet. Planted plant and just finished to clean everything, as wasn’t any water. I managed on time. For what this story? For the name of the post. In new mail I read what is difference between extrovert and introvert artists. “Extroverts find inspiration in things around them, introverts from what is inside them – own thoughts and memories.” Based on yesterday’s post I am extrovert. Never could think such about myself. Then I analyzed everything and get that probably it became truth. At first I started to write blog to announce which text will be next. Later I made posts frequent and longer. Idea of write diary to improve English I refused and started to publish that on-line. Don’t confuse with journalistic, then I wrote about others, not myself. Extrovert is person who loves to talk. Usually I saw myself as listener. People frequently ask me about directions, could tell me some stories during trip. Extrovert makes quick decisions. Yes, sometimes I better spend some time to think before speaking. But if I decided or agree, why I need pretend that still search for answer. Extrovert prefer to work in the team. Here we have little problem. Writer is solitude profession, but I am sure that I will manage to make busy with my ideas any amount of willing people. If someone guide what to do it will be better for environment. But introverts “are better with writing than in conversations”. Here we have problem of level of language knowledge. Talk to myself in English aloud is strange, make podcast when I am not sure in every stress in word is stupid. When I hadn’t choice I spoke with people on English and find words. I know that my accent is terrible, because I need some time to receive proper pronunciation. In native languages to “imply” specific region words or intonation I need from three days to week. With English I think I will need more time and stable source of language. So in any moment could became talkative. So maybe it’s truth. I am extrovert and based on this I stop put in the bookmarks articles for introverts. Could it be that I was shy extrovert and because of this was wrong? Who knows, I could discuss it later. 28 October, 2019. During October I already wrote 8 new texts. It’s difficult to notice, but in reality I slow down after 19 texts in September. I am not sure about rest of October, but this week is already November. Each November is invented “trumpet calling” for writers to write a book. Idea is to write some pages daily. I won’t participate, this year also. I can’t choose one story and make from it novel. To write non-fiction book how to write a novel in such period of time is fresh, but crazy idea. I am terribly not-organized writer. I have huge amount of texts which didn’t write, because wrote something else instead. I have awful amount of not finished “big” texts. All my long time readers could repeat them by heart – one more Hamlet with big drop of Danish. The same Scandinavian tune, but with earlier time in fantasy with mentioning Aces. “Complementary” woman story, which should be written after Baritone (Melody of life) as was planned as “write something with music”. And list I could continue with Medici and further with all necessary mentioning. I wrote it many times that I haven’t such crazy dedication as writers which participate in November Writing Month. As journalist I accept every text as work. Daily work which need more or less research. I can’t wait whole year to bloom with words one month. I don’t believe in quantity – once I wrote 17 pages during a day – pain in the neck was awful. I believe in theory that ideas create new ideas. The more ideas you have, the more new one you will have. In the morning I read an article, I wrote plot for mystery. Just few lines created scene and from each scene I will make a mystery. Almost daily I walk in the same underground crossing, there is zoo shop on the door of which is advertisement “with every purchase – gift: hamster”. I think the same process with ideas when you close the notebook. I made plans, something as editorial calendar. Later I found new idea and made research or wrote it. I think ideas are everywhere and this is most overwhelming to me in creativity. At first I want to write about this thoughts new fiction, but decided it will looks like I “convince” people to make some choice. Everyone decides what to do with own mind. What is suitable, comfortable and connected with personal plans. If it looks fabulous in the end, amazing. Writing mainly is profession when one person decide what to do. If exists possibility of co-writing, it will be other rules, which are discussed on the shore. On the other hand write half of the book is much easier, than whole book and you have someone with whom to discuss characters. You saw that – again invented new idea, this time about co-writers. I understood why writers agree to this month. In it there is some guidance what to do next. Sometimes necessary is advice or plan and here you have daily reminder what to do. 27 October, 2019. There is little irony that micro with such name I post in the morning. Just time changed and I managed quickly finished all which needed. Today is clear morning with amazing sun, good that yesterday I made foto which is perfect for poster.  P.S.: News for the end of Sunday: Have you plans for winter? To be exactly for winter 2030? Lviv has such plans - we want to have Winter Olympic Games 2030. To EURO 2012 we received new airport, stadium and new roads. Will be one more airport? Third, at other side from old one? If serious, idea is ambitious and interesting. Not far away are mountains. I searched, but didn't find project for symbol. Will be it lion on skis or something else? As city of Leo it will be predictable. Good evening of Sunday. 26 October, 2019. Creativity hasn’t schedule, and only after 19.00 I invented and wrote new micro. I won’t post it today. I need to make poster for it. Probably it will be morning’s dramatic foto of fog. Or maybe will use props to other text in deep research. Texts have common theme – fencing. Who read me in not English languages knows that I wrote a lot about bladed weapons. And I think I mentioned this also in English long time ago. No, I haven’t personal experience in fencing. As every writer, I use imagination. 25 October, 2019. Third time this month I repeat autumn vibes.  Today's morning deep autumn fog.  Yesterday I checked fotos for last year October, the same autumn mood fotos. And at first I was shocked and later became happy, as could be noticed on today's foto.  Never believed in before and after fotos, so I won't publish them. About what - year of daily workouts changed me a lot. I was always skeptical, I tried a lot of the programs. I even haven't idea what workout really worked. Also was refusal from candies and making them only food for big holidays. Usually I don't put such fotos in the blog, but I am too proud of myself to be quiet. At first - like wrote in fiction on Monday - old jeans. From same period I had not favorite, so from them I made shorts. Really short shorts. Why I put this fotos on-line? All of us has moments when weight is showing level of your stress, but it doesn't mean that we should be in despair. Hard work, two workouts in the day, frequently without motivation to do something. But in the end it pays. I know that I will need a lot of work done to return to me-shape, which I plan. But I made that without dieting. Fitness, fitness and I will make more fotos.   23 October, 2019. I try to add new texts in every form which I write – micro, plays and scripts. I thought that everything is complete. After checking gaps I noticed that almost forget about texts for kids. Probably mood is not proper. Some time ago I thought that idea of write series is awesome. But for now it didn’t work. I have few ideas for it. One is with little girls from winter story. Second is about sea captain and his grandson, didn’t manage to invent what to do with boat and illustrations. Third is about adventure of boy and his dog. Who remember what I wrote about dogs, when published “Lioness” in Ukrainian, remembers how I see dogs. Who managed to forget them, I will repost.   Sweet sarmat/tibetan, in different sources they have different names. But I didn’t find such toy, because I think dog should be such big to became partner in adventures. I am writer, I think such way. Now I research few projects, so I am not sure that publish story for kids this week or this month. Later, who knows. I have nothing against kids. I adore limited vocabulary which could use in this kind of tests. Just my thoughts occupied with different age group ideas. 22 October, 2019. Some colours are more popular in particular time of the year, month or week. I decided to buy some black papers. In all art supplies shops to me was told that almost nothing left - before Halloween.  I bought different sizes and textures, what could be perfect as background or for attempts to draw.  Beautiful pencils for black paper, for additional motivation.  All of papers were bought in different shops. Every time I was asked if also need orange paper. I didn't need. Paper, fabric and wood - I saw decorations of spiders in all sizes and designs. I even don't mention silhouettes of pumpkins, here creative hadn't borders. I walked through centre from University to different directions and it was big pause between lectures. How many students are in Lviv? Who said that higher education is not popular? I am not about that. Yes, coffee. All walk is quest among open papers cups of coffee. Lviv has/had special culture of drinking coffee (піти на каву). Usually it means to sit somewhere cosy and quiet enough to drink slowly coffee with long conversation. Now it's mainly coffee machine. Coffee it's beverage prepared special way. Proper is "Turkish coffee", not especially on the sand, just boil it. Cezve it's item for morning, could be add some milk into coffee. It's aroma fulfil kitchen. Coffee was tradition, some ritual. And now all walk and drink coffee. It's not suitable for popular slogan "На каву до Львова" - Visit Lviv for coffee. I believe that Lviv will save it's uniqueness. Back to the paper. If everything works with my drawing, I think after Halloween will be much easy to find black paper. 21 October, 2019. After today’s event there was two possibilities – write a post and write a text. I thought that again write post about my favorite out of stock jeans will be too much. Instead I write about that micro.  This is jeans, which brings such emotions.  20 October, 2019. Post will be about cemetery, but not in crazy Halloween attempt to make it attractive. I warned, if you want to read further. Weather forecast promised last sunny Sunday before will start rains. And we decided that is proper time to clean graves of my grandparents before Day of all Saints, it’s usual for Lviv to remember it visiting cemeteries near it date. We haven’t car, so all adventures connected with road. We haven’t special service, which could clean graves. We haven’t even service which make roads inside cemeteries. So visiting cemetery connected with shoes which survive everything, gardening tools and some water to drink. Since summer started new project of making proper road to cemetery and total destroy of road which was there before. Road is amazing, wide, with fresh asphalt, but it ends too soon with sand embankment, after which is direction which was road to cemetery. All overcome it, and then we see preparation for new road, wide, impressive and awful to walk because of sand. On the sides of roads stands all building machinery. In week days there should be awfully noisy. On the sign is written that it will be ready till end of 2020, so hiking shoes will be must have. But there aren’t plan how it will look like. Sign with digging man looks a little surreal in few steps to cemetery. In Lviv road to cemetery it’s not only road of tears and sorrow. Usually it’s place where you meet people who you know and now talks about possible new road. I visit that cemetery from May 1999, when died my granny (mother’s mother). It’s first real attempt to make some proper road there and it should be done before. Such happened, that was experience of visited it in winter. 11 February 2005 died other granny (father’s mother). Funeral was at 14 February, was a lot of snow. Many years after it was funeral again at 14 of February, my grandfather (mother’s father) died 12 February 2017. Again was a lot of snow, catafalque had huge problems to return back on the road in the deep snow. Hope someday they will make it bearable for lived one, who visit dead one. Weather was really amazing, such warm and sunny. So it could counts as spending some time outdoors. 19 October, 2019. In not finding one thing it’s easy to find what you are also looking for, but didn't find before. After yesterday’s thinking about handwriting, I calculated that better is to have chalk board. And today walked to find it. In the shops I learned much more than hoped about that chalk boards. They are expensive and not what I need. Idea with black sketchbook again on the top of the solution. What I find there instead and bought, you will see at the end of today’s micro. Yes, I connected prop that I had with new one and created fresh story.  18 October, 2019. For days I clean bookmark from links in Instagram, didn’t want to register for now, see only few top lines. And checked what was interesting for me, if I decided to return to this topic. With making posters for own stories, I prepare myself for difficult step – spend some time on writing better letters. The same template of letters remember everyone. It’s strange and it even was idea for text “Candidate”. Somehow it was Spanish alphabet in our cheap store. When I work in LibreOffice Writer, my computer works in Linux if anyone wonder, I could receive any type that I want with one change in the top. My printer could have moods and “eat” paper, so I have ideas to learn to write like on that beautiful photos on-line. How awful is my handwriting I heard from teachers for 11 years at school. As worse was “your notebook is like written by boy”. I still have no idea why it is worse level of handwriting. When I came to journalism to me was explained in editorial office that “you hand couldn’t write as quickly as your brain works”. It was usual explanation to lost words endings. With typewriter or computer problem is solved. But now popular is lettering, don’t confuse with calligraphy. After few hours spend in kitchen, “fresh” idea came to my mind. I will try chalk lettering. I have chalk, which use when necessary to mark fabric in sewing. Found some surface. It didn’t worked out. Surface was too smooth to be noticed my attempts. There was one more fresh idea, special notebook to practice it. I don’t say that it didn’t work, but note to myself – never ask for black paper and white pen in not art supply shop. I still believe that idea with popularity of lettering is conspiracy of people with good handwriting that others will be humiliated or stained with chalk. I think evening of Friday is not time for serious posts. 17 October, 2019. I thought that probably daily posts are too much, but maybe few lines are not such terrible idea. Today won't be new text, even if I have idea for new story. For this story I need research and what I hadn't in boxes of props - rope for knots. Next wild idea, inspired by video which saw few times in a loop. I saw there huge potential for illustrations. Stories with different props and research usually not quickly written. So it's possible that before it will be few more shorter texts. 16 October, 2019. I am not sure, who told this, probably Agatha Christie, washing dishes is perfect time to invent murder mysteries. When I make house chores, silly ideas come to my head. Sometimes I wrote them and publish, as today.  Upside down pyramid.pdf 19.05 15 October, 2019. Checked in the morning newsletters, what I saw connected in idea for new micro.  15.05 14 October, 2019. Today is Monday, but holiday, so perfect idea to repeat autumn vibes.  This time I decided to make fotos with some feeling of nature in autumn.  Such picturesque view is on road to the our airport. (Old airport behind my back.)  It's close to my home, few minutes of walk and such amazing colours. If anyone asks, yes live not far away from airport is noisy sometimes. Place for flat chose grandparents, because wanted to live not far away their friends, people closer as some relatives. (Mom's godfather was pilot of air planes. Absurd, I never fly by plane.) And not connected with nature - accidental today's selfie.  13 October, 2019. As former journalist could write something about anything, without problem. But some topics are difficult for me, because personal. Tomorrow is day of Ukrainian Army (День Українського війська). How to celebrate it when we have in country what we have? How to stop it and don’t name it defeat? Always believed that it is family holiday, since it was 6 of December. Since 1991 year my father was in Ukrainian army. Since it began in modern form. Before it was not Ukrainian army who send him in Afghanistan in January 1980, combat injury, yes mom was already pregnant with me. How many such stories will have kids, if we will talk about Ukrainian army during recent years? Army is power, impressive uniform, it’s what we should be proud. There should be no doubts, because it’s army. Army it’s victories, no matter which cost. As student-journalist I wrote for years to newspaper “Army of Ukraine” (Армія України). After finished University was possibility with my degree to be in the Army. I refused, my father is military man. Lieutenant colonel, signal corps, with experience of military service in landing troops. I could talk about army for hours and I don’t want to write about it tomorrow. 12 October, 2019. Today I was in the centre of the town, huge amount of tourist, which made endless fotos. Good that I know short cuts in the streets. I found button which wanted, in this shops tourists are rare. When returned home decided to took foto camera and made few fotos of autumn vibes, weather is wonderful.    And mom took few pictures of me.  Casual, if name it style.  11 October, 2019. Half of the day wasn’t internet connection and I checked notes to see which project potential is suitable for next writing. Lovely autumn day, sunny, with leaves floating in the puddles. But I don’t want to write it. Maybe not today. By the way I noticed, that have lot of projects attached to seasons. As talks about winter – there are lot of them with snow as background. Lot of illustrations is possible for one of the projects. Fashion show of wedding dresses connected with mystery solving. And problem here is that I will struggle to paint white on white. As for never been married it will be fun to play in that popular fashion trend. My main problem is to which mountains put story, that I will survive adding one more foreign language to story. Everything connected with learning language I try to avoid to put in fiction. Already wrote what wanted in "You can speak English". Text was written in 2015, but still could circle new learned words in the dictionary. By the way, reread about. There was written that I am 168cm tall, when checked some time ago (needed for fitness) was 165cm. Probably because it was in the evening? For others languages I still not ready to write stories on them. Probably it's good for me. Stories for knitting is also more winter story. I love knit, crochet, embroidery and even some sewing, without doubts. But idea to add to story patterns of the item used in the book. It’s usual in cozy mysteries. Adore that there is also culinary receipts in the end of the books about poisoning. Before use them there is wish to ask which result we want in the end to name it successful? After summer also left lot of not used holiday stories. With all that waves and “parasol” connected backgrounds. Should I ignore weather and accept imagination? Choosing what to write next it’s most painful in writer’s life. I am not writer of one book, indeed. When I checked all notes I liked all stories. Probably solution is to write each idea on paper (more that twenty, later stop counting), put them in enormous box and choose blindfold. I again started to babble, I know. Of course, writing not connected fiction stories is much productive. But still it’s not usual. Nobel prize of literature + micro. 10 October, 2019. First of all, about Nobel prize of literature. Olga Tokarczuk, Poland. Congratulations!  I made her foto in my journalist's past, when was at Book Forum Lviv. 13.09.2009. Second. I tried and failed in writing new Halloween themed story. But I have new micro in the end.  9 October, 2019. As far as I know still is beginning of October. Probably this is information which I understood, but better not to say aloud. If look around or in advertisements in e-mail box, Christmas is around the corner or already on the threshold. Previous year, with new Ukrainian Church we still had old date of Christmas in January. Who knows which will be this year? Maybe I miss something and it will be in October, I saw New Years decorations in office-supplies shops this week. Office supplies-shops with lot of toys are my endless inspiration, when I had no idea what to make to poster. When I search for something for space I didn’t find something interesting. But learned that there is toy, where instead of bullets are toy cars. Even with my wild imagination, I have no idea for what is it. If there will be at least little planes, but cars… October is spooky month, but I published science-fiction, because need to publish it someday. I have also stories in drafts about ghosts and even mystery novel about vampires. As always my interpretation of vampires. I won’t repeat my after word to English part of “My sidekick Dracula”. All that spooky stories and ideas with beautiful leaves drops now is too late, because all wait for winter? I honestly don’t know what to do. It looks like people want to skip something and miss day to day life in it. It’s a little bit crazy, just refuse to accept existence of three months till start of next year. I am sure there is still enough of time to publish bunch of new texts or do anything else for what there is a wish. 8 October, 2019. Invented poster and could publish new cinematic story. If someone notices resemblance between poster and prop for future projects, it's because of light. My attempt to publish science-fiction, as I remember till now I didn't publish texts in this genre. First step from drafts to finished story.  7 October, 2019. In previous post I show which projects are in work, but yesterday and today worked on retyping of old text. This text had lot of troubles since creation in October 2017. It was not good short story. I decided it was too light science fiction. As result after glitch text was destroyed and left only paper draft. I wanted to just retype text. But as writer it became from fifteen pages twenty one and cinematic story. Have no idea if illustrate it. How with my drawing level? Not to mention how describe what I invented. How comment it because fotos which could drag to "about" are from country which better not to mention in Ukraine. So I will stay on story that all my interest to science-fiction is light and connected only with that Stanislaw Lem (Solaris) was born and lived in Lviv. And also from course of media-ecology in University remember studying impression which made reading "War of the Worlds" on radio. I plan to revise this story as main creative work. Even if will be without poster, I will publish it when text will be ready. 5 October, 2019. Could be noticed that I used willpower to not write and publish daily spooky stories. After intense September I decided to give some air to my readers. There are still lot of projects which needs more research. As spoiler could show some props which will be used in future stories.  2 October, 2019. Whole day was endlessly busy and only now could be near computer. Main news of today.  Hollywood action super-star Tom Cruise is in Lviv.  On the fotos with Mayor of Lviv.  Photo credit ЛМР. Mission possible - amazing weather was whole day today. 1 October, 2019. First of all, I made pdf from blog for previous months. Blog 3 June-30 September 2019.pdf And I wanted to start month with new text. I just need more time to slow down my writing.  Pumpkins up.pdf   Mail: aksioma@neonet.ua Main Copyright © 2003-2019. All rights reserved |