Pause for coffee.
Pebbles of words.
Mermaids of the road.
Dangerous and beautiful.
Scooters in Portofino.
Me as myself.
Importance of decisions.
Work and plans.
Summer returned to the town.
Loads of ideas.
What are my responsibilities?
4th of July celebration.
Heat in town.
Retreat: writing for stage.
At other day.
20 September, 2019.
Was such busy day that almost forgot to upload new text. Here it is.
19 September, 2019.
Didn't plan to write on this theme till late October, but such cold weather we have now. I decided it's necessary. So, here is new text.
Pause for coffee.pdf
18 September, 2019.
Last year in December I wrote 12 micro texts in a row. This September I try to write more.
This text is 12th this month, so I think I will manage this.
17 September, 2019.
Today is something I didn't do for a long time - audio play.
16 September, 2019.
New week, new text.
Pebbles of words.pdf
14 September, 2019.
Wrote this micro today in the morning.
13 September, 2019.
Didn't know when to publish this text. But Friday, 13 is perfect for it.
Read with a "spoon of salt".
12 September, 2019.
Mermaids of the road.pdf
11 September, 2019.
I wrote today new text, but it has jokes.
Today is day to remember 11 of September 2001 and I decided not to post it.
So spent day for preparation. This is second text which didn't work as part of story about bikes in mountains and became own tiny story.
Story about what for needs bike real woman. My specific interpretation.
I decided to made only setting and most of fotos looks like that, because bikes time to time fall.
If there is question, yes it's temporary tattoo.
It looks like that and it suppose to be a plume. I frequently change my mind, so decided to experiment with temporary tattoo.
Made it myself. Here is prove.
During tomorrow I will finish with revising text and if everything will work, publish text.
10 September, 2019.
9 September, 2019.
7 September, 2019.
Honestly, just read article about "benefits of meditation to writers".
From unhealthy wish to write blog I made new cinematic story.
6 September, 2019.
If no one noticed, from start of September I made little experiment. Instead of search, think and write new blog post, I all energy put in writing new fictional text.
From beginning of September, if not count this, I already have two more tiny unpublished plays. I think it's more productive.
Some reading for better Friday's mood.
Dangerous and beautiful.pdf
4 September, 2019.
I am afraid to be boring and predictable, but...
Today again uploaded new text.
Soliloquy in presence of witnesses.
1 September, 2019.
Already first day of September and I could post new text, not like second during week, but as first in new month.
In the end are few lines about inspiration to text. Also few costumes sketches.
"Fasten seat belts" and enjoy the ride.
Scooters in Portofino.pdf
28 August, 2019
Me as myself unchangeable in my creative journey.
I planned to remade my story about bikes, which takes place in US fictional National Park. Add there few more locations, women bikers.
Today in the morning I checked Pinterest. And as result – few minutes ago finished new text.
Seaside, Italy and scooters. Tiny cinematic story.
I remember that published new text only at Monday.
When I will publish it? Now we three days mourning events in Ukraine. Text has some jokes.
So it will be in the end of the week, probably in September.
26 August, 2019
Monday, but still day off in Ukraine. I thought it's best timing for not such serious text.
21 August, 2019
Morning dedicated to first revision of both texts and when checked news it was everywhere – Matrix 4.
At first thought it’s some kind of joke, but it’s on Variety, CNN, BBC and many more. It’s truth.
My Aksioma is 16 years old, so it’s my life in Matrix. Not counting final paper in Uni about internet.
Hope will return Agent Smith, glitch is alive even in Marvel.
Matrix is everywhere, it’s cover of my copy “Film Art”.
Matrix became part of daily life and it will be interesting which story could be told when aren’t enough phone box to escape it or with Wi-Fi there are others rules.
For some time “welcome to the real world”, words of Morpheus, were on my computer before turn off.
Based on news, legend of Neo and Trinity also will reborn.
Will see what story it be, in today's time of super heroes.
20 August, 2019.
Previous week I finished text. 12 scenes in total. Will think later if make it longer.
Tiny problem. In text located in the mountains again are bikers. But they are different bikers from previous text. If put texts one after another, it will bring confusion.
Yesterday I have genial/mad idea that I need new text between them and problem solved.
Few minutes ago I finished new text – 11 scenes. Comedy, absolutely different, even lovely. With possibility to draw dresses. Always wanted to try my hand on pin up style.
In short my news.
17 August, 2019
Some time ago I decided to have longer hair and yesterday I believed it’s wrong and had short haircut.
About writing. Now, when I have chance to add fotos in big resolution, my creativity is unstoppable. I invented to story one more interesting location and it will take even more time to research and huge possibility for illustrations.
15 August, 2019
I start to write new project. Idea with location was from beautiful picture from one of my newsletters. Today wrote already 5 scenes, hope to make it comedy. Need more research because choose characters with not enough knowledge for background. Hope to add there illustrations when finish.
Had idea to write for some time stories for kids. But it was in plans. In reality two days ago were problems with water, electricity and for second day in a row we have water of color dark sepia. It’s problematic for cooking and disastrous for watercolor activities. I decided to make sea as part of stories for kids. I have toys for that. Also wanted to experiment there with adding maps, always was fascinated of stories with own maps.
Not everything depends from me, but I try to work with what is possible.
12 August, 2019
In the shade are +31C and summer probably returned to the town.
Not planned repair of newly repaired bridge created additional problems to the traffic and only bikes somehow moves in it.
Today is weather when cap is all the time on head and every clothes is too hot.
I am too busy with not creative stuff, can’t write manifests about future projects.
Sometimes I think that haven’t strategic thinking, all my plans are far away to next writing. I have no idea what I will do in 5 years, year or even till the end of the month. It could be named – life in a flow or big dependence from too many factors.
8 August, 2019
Yesterday’s idea with Dropbox was out of my rules, that my text should be only at my site. With frequency of crushing everything on internet it wasn’t easy, but necessary decision. My site already is not enough for my creativity’s results. I made illustrations necessary part of finished project, so it is such way, not other. I need to search for solution to keep going.
One more text I changed to Dropbox.
After uploading one text, my all thoughts are about what to write next. Only moving forward mood. I know that texts are not newspaper’s articles, but I am always busy with new ideas.
On the calendar is August and I had thoughts about some summer’s holiday themed stories. Probably artist retreats in Italy or France, other destinations are rare in such workshops. It brings with it painful decision which language to clear from dust and more painful – learn.
Before decision I looked inside my overloaded e-mail box, it happens always at final stages of work at the text – there are endless advertisements and spam. So what I found here. Quietness after “Christmas in July” wasn’t long, now there are mainly preparation and decorations for next season. Autumn is coming? From where? Where gone summer and again summer without holiday on the seaside? On radio are advertisements “Back to school”.
Now is still August, still summer – shut up with all that. That’s what was on my mind. There are two solutions to that – denying and acceptance. To deny is to write about summer holidays for my characters, found some warmer place to them and draw palms. All that without noticing yellow leaves on the streets. Second is accept inevitable and start stories which are more autumn oriented with even more knitting and coziness overload.
For that I could have only English. And I even found out that exists knitting tours, like art tours. I didn’t figure all details, but was impressed with such idea. Yes, I will find interesting part in everything. Also about knitting I found that top countries interested in such hobby are New Zealand, Iceland and UK. But in numbers I also found “28.8 million Americans participated in knitting and/or crochet”. Popular hobby and less depends from weather, if we mention plein air.
I didn’t made final decision, no matter how it looks like. I am researching.
7 August, 2019.
Before publish text on-line I had dilemma what to do with illustrations. To make them tiny, it’s to destroy my whole work. Space is not enough at my site to show them in whole.
In this text are 54 fotos. Lot of work. In pdf file is 2.2Mb.
I opened account at the Dropbox to storage my writing somewhere.
New text, this time link to Dropbox to read pdf, it should work.
File in dropbox.
5 August, 2019
Work on each project is mainly backstage, before finishing project.
Today my most important accomplishment is helmets.
After I made other preparations I started to work on fotos for text.
Wasn't electricity, after that were thunderstorm with heavy rain. In short, one more location I will illustrate tomorrow.
But today I want to tell about other accomplishment.
He is character from play, his name in play is Robert. What such amazing about him, if not count shiny helmet?
In details it could be seen that his feet didn’t touch the ground and bike didn’t hold to something. First and simplest explanation – he is riding. Second and not interesting my perfect search for the point of not falling of whole construction. With others Actors it didn't work.
When everything will be finished, in few days, will be whole text.
Before that some art.
Most difficult was to find fotos out of context and gave less spoilers.
1 August, 2019.
Today is my and my Mum's birthday.
I decided to make some kind of holiday and don't revise today. Yesterday was revision of each characters lines, most colourful of revisions.
Among answering to phone calls I managed to work on pictures for play.
In total I made 3 for text. Cloudy day so I refused work with watercolour.
Noticeable interesting choice of details for still life. It's what I have with doll's furniture.
As promised, do everything for publishing text this month.
30 July, 2019.
I could almost sure say that text will be ready next month, not this will be published.
Most thinking brings this time costumes for male characters. They should be in some harmony with their main props.
Tiny details to mini Universe for next story.
Revision like always in circles. Changes, add changes in the text and next paper for future revision.
I finished it next day after previous post. In total there are 14 scenes for 8 characters, women and men in same quantity.
I am not sure when finish all parts to publish, I just work on it.
25 July, 2019
Time to time I remember and write posts to explain what I am doing now.
Writing, at some days. As today I wrote 4 scenes, more than 1500 words for next project.
In details will be longer.
In previous post I mentioned about Scandinavian fantasy. Thought about that a lot, struggles with translating. As result I invented new fantasy with Scandinavian taste, made some researches. For me it will be interesting. Didn’t decide if unite it with story which I have. When start to write and find out. It’s big project and it will help me in habit of write longer texts in English. Still thinking what writer as style inspiration could help me in it. Wilde or Wodehouse probably won’t work here as examples.
Meanwhile I have loads of other ideas. When I choose too long what to write next happens the same thing over and over again. Yes, yesterday I invented new story. Few scenes of which wrote today.
The point is that I couldn’t invent story with enough fun twist where easy unite bikers and comedy. It supposed to be on plein air. And I put away this story. Instead I invented new one. Here I could have elements of comedy. Twist helps in it. It’s special story which will understand only bikers with taste of my humor and big tender heart.
I also want to add there images, so this will take some time till publishing.
Loads of ideas, loads of work to do. What else I will invent next I have no idea.
21 July, 2019
Today in my country is Parliament election and I think choice is good theme.
People went to choose own future. There are people who want to vote. What I can say – we all in the deep are optimistic, we went and try to make a difference. In the Monday evening whole country will be disappointed of results, but it will be only tomorrow. Now we all believe in better life.
As writer I make such choice about future much frequently. Mainly of future of next project. Like in election there are bunch of candidates. Like with election not everything is clear. Like in election not all information connected with project was truth in details and opinions. Like in election main is trust and worse is trust to wrong person.
Like I wrote in previous post – my main problem or advantage is British English. And what to write with this. You know, now Marvel is trending in news, so it should be ideas for new phase, some kind of. I am not Marvel, no matter that we have common interest to Norse mythology. I also have some Aces in my old draft, but they are not main characters, they more resembles classical myths and they don’t live in our time.
What I like in all this fuss, that Norse mythology is still trendy. What’s scary me that my story is about warriors, but it’s my view, as with Hamlet, not to the level of Fortinbras chronicles as I remember text. Yes that’s my two endless themes – Hamlet and Scandinavian stories. Also problem that draft was written at wrong to my country language. So it’s inner border to return to this story and begin hard work of translation. For sure I could start from little prequel stories about each of necessary characters and such way return to this world.
Of course like normal writers I could write fantasy with Knights and Dragons. I don’t know, probably something is wrong with my relationships with Dragons… If talk about Knights, I only have story outline connected with fencing, but here it didn’t count.
Yes, I have an outlines for wide range of themes, which connected with different locations, occupations and even languages. They not always connected with plays writing, because not every story is for stage. And I think that fiction as prose is better playground for improving my style in language and even in story structure and characters development.
I could return and try my hand in writing cozy mysteries and invent male as protagonist. As writer I could do everything, as writer I think a lot of what exactly I should do next.
For better or for worse writing is lonely profession and you couldn’t discuss with someone else as “fresh head” future plans. There are benefits in it – when you choose yourself, no one will tell you that’s bad idea for every idea proposal. It could end in doubts and problems with future productivity, which is bad.
I have few ideas which could write during one day, if everything will be fine. I was thinking about something bigger than standing alone projects. For now longest of my projects in English was cinematic story. I like idea of making storyboards. With sketching everything is more complicated, from attempt to learn to draw I ended in bunch of stories about artists. Sometimes you also could be lost in creativity, because everything attractive and without strong plan everything is shiny.
Everything with daily work is possible, like with my English. I write long posts about what write. Five years ago if someone told me that I will really write on English I won’t believe in it. (With English I have no choice and survived.) Main is to see what should be done and for me is difficult, because I didn’t see clear what I want as result or whole picture.
All this fluids of importance of knowing what will change in the future connected with election adds some different taste to talking about anything.
15 July, 2019
After finished all housework I decided to spend some time on improving English. Today was idea of reading something about American vocabulary. Instead I took test. Wrong move, I know.
47% I was right about American slang. It wrote to me that if I am not British, English is my not native language.
10 from 12 answers are correct. This was result of “How well do you know British slang?”
“A majority of, or even all, your choices, were supposedly "British" English.” That was result for “Do you use American or British words?”
Conclusion: Britishness in it’s deep form.
I could blame in everything “Happy English” with “I’m little teapot...” I still remember it, indeed.
From there are two roads:
First is accept myself as result of study books and literature which was around me. (Should I learn their traffic rules in other direction? Every time in films I wait for car crushes in wrong moments.) Or be proud of myself that self-studied to such level language. Write stories about English countrysides. Don’t think that western could be interesting next step in creativity. Use toy horses to old outline of mystery about polo.
Second, I need only 53% accomplish and be fluent in American English. Language of power, language which I should probably learn at first place. Perry Mason instead of Tommy and Tuppence (Prudence)? For this I will need huge motivation and have no idea from where lot of study resources.
As writer, aka person who daily work with words, I should pay attention to such tiniest details.
I know it’s not nice, when I share my headache with readers, but I have what I have. It’s Monday’s post.
Wimbledon men’s final!
alas not Federer.
13 July, 2019
Next text connected somehow with holiday.
12 July, 2019
At first I didn’t plan to announce new text.
It’s tiniest thing – less than thousand words. I didn’t manage to finish it today to publish. Only invented and wrote. Tomorrow I will publish it during day, when complete. It’s time sensitive story.
I could invent story about everything, if it will be frequently enough in front of me. What is it? Answer will be tomorrow.
10 July, 2019
There are some themes which when I try to write about on English, I just didn’t manage to do it. Today it was our education system and situation before election. Again wrote post on Ukrainian. Maybe because it’s too personal experience?
8 July, 2019
Yesterday was 16 years of Aksioma and it’s huge amount of years, lot of experience. And suddenly I have such question – what are my responsibilities? What I should or have to do if not counting invent, write, revise, revise… revise and publish text? Is there are some strategy planning for playwright and which steps should be done?
Previous job always left mark on you. In journalistic published text is end of the story, time to search for new one. As writer I don’t best promoter of my text, because I can’t figure out what I should or shouldn’t do. For some projects I could recast main character, left same location and later figure out details to make this story alive. I just doesn’t see whole picture above this line.
My problem, my situation that all my planning is crisis management. Even at stock market should be some rules. In our country all changes suddenly and in few hours. What will be next no one knows, just all situations could have endless possible scripts. Honestly I hate frequent changes of plans. I admire people who knows where they want to be in 10 years and which steps they will do to accomplish it. I believe in interesting possibilities which opens from nowhere, but they should be on place at least for few days that I could prepare for it.
Writers want to be best-selling. Best-selling playwright? Play staged on Broadway, Barbican, Bollywood? All three? When I searched for US flags or something resembles it decoration in shop to me was proposed beautiful decoration with Eiffel Towers. Reason for that was – what’s the difference. Probably for American’s and even French people there is some. (As creative idea was pizza party for Italian mood.)
I have lot of drafts and as my main responsibility I see to write and prepare them to level of publishing. Sometimes I add there storyboards, but it’s my choice, not responsibility.
7 July I count as birthday of my on-line home for already 16 years, my Aksioma.
During this years I experimented a lot with design of it:
Now it's place for my fiction.
With me Aksioma changes all the time.
16 years, a little boasting - it's such lot of writing.
Happy Birthday to AKSIOMA!
4 July, 2019
I was thinking how I could prepared and made 4th of July party.
By the way, I didn’t manage to buy yesterday little American’s flag in our shop for parties. Shop assistant promised to write down and check later if such decorations are available.
Tiny play as conclusion of all my musings.
4th of July celebration.pdf
3 July, 2019
It all the time happens to me, I start research, read, plan project and… Just cleaned e-mail box from letters and it was stuffed with endless ideas from magazines how to decorate everything for celebrating 4th of July.
Today morning probably was crucial mass of this flow and as result I have accidental text. For two characters, man and woman, even without names. It’s almost 1000 words. It has jokes. And if I find anything America’s connected it will have poster tomorrow and be published.
I know it has nothing connected with possibility of future new Maydan in Ukraine after yesterday’s events. Probably my brain just blocks reality in such way.
1 July, 2019
Heat in town is special. Heat in the town is when it’s good when you enter in the shop and there works air-condition and when you back in the street you remember that forget to buy more water. And water in the heat it’s not water which you should drink daily to stay hydrated, it’s gift of coldness and liquid power which helps you to move forward.
Talks in the town are about that would be better of little lower temperature, after talks few days ago, that should be a little bit warmer if we are in the summer time. It’s hair which is dry in moment after you wash it and you don’t receive coldness which hoped for.
Heat in the town is pleasant moment when weather is more important than whole politic. And endless newspapers agitations works perfect as such necessary fan.
Heat in the town is mood in which you don’t want to announce any work plans. Even say aloud that you could think about something sounds not proper with such blue sky without clouds. All thoughts should be concentrated in the dreams of swimming pool. By the way – how it will look like on the stage: inside swimming pool as location? Personal baths to catch a mood? Lack of ideas I don’t have, it’s noticeable.
Heat is beautiful and strong excuse to return back in your daily menu ice-cream, we can’t forget about that.
29 June, 2019
Ukraine now is in hard phase of endless diseases – parliament’s elections. And there are thoughts about what’s going on.
Problem that everywhere are advertisement and you listen or read them permanently. In general there are just promises. Sometimes there is wish to be awfully selfish and ask – when we don’t talk about best future of country or new possibilities to freedom, what I receive in result. What will be in my life today and tomorrow after we left behind your empty words how your mission is important to balance of whole Universe.
Results are dangerous things – they could motivate or bring new questions. Every lost cm on waist in result is winning back old skirt or trousers and after such victory I try new exercises or add new repeat. It’s stupid and simple. Like everything should be in life.
Will be better – you put something what is necessary to hypothetic yourself – if it won’t change you daily life to inch, it’s empty promise. With election could be lotto, with every candidate has number and chance will choose who will be in Parliament. Results for future and politic of Ukraine won’t change and will be saved lot of money on election.
Clear result is most important thing in every action. If you remember paper board games in childhood, with near 100 dots and dice. You could move faster using arrows or turn back, but you know where is finish and you played in it, because you saw clear aim.
In conversations could be lot of details, but when you make step forward and doesn’t see what for or more specific details you start to wonder about wasting your time. In creativity also, you have plans in details and something shiny just distract you from it. It’s shines, but what to do with it you need to figure out yourself, as challenge. You try to solve it and put in priority on the top shelf, but you spend on it only some amount of time and return to make what is in your previous plans. When you will receive more details, you return back to that shiny object. There are many projects which I put on research stage, they waits for proper time, but I work on what is clear and will give result of finished text.
26 June, 2019
In my previous play as background was idea of master-class. It’s what I am thinking about all the time.
You know, learning for me was always important part of my life. Because of this time to time I return to idea that should work at learning one more foreign language. Which one and what for are questions of other level. But it’s not counting endless work on improving English. I all the time remind myself that write on it only from 2014 and still learn it.
I believe in knowledge and possibility of improvement. I believe in mentoring and apprenticeship which doesn’t connect with age. I know that every person could teach something, if have wish to give advices.
I am talking about that I am self-taught playwright. There are projects when I felt deep lack of formal education in this field, no matter how long I work. Knowing how to write about everything is fundamentals of journalistic with habit of research, but sometimes there is wish to be more specific in searching problems in the text.
I all the time read about theory of drama and acting as profession. Sometimes it’s absence of structure or use of proper literature canon. Sometimes it’s other’s language culture which not always clear to me.
Reading a lot about writing craft I think of importance presence of people who polish what you do or like in art, show how to better hold brush. I all the time searching for such details which could help and improve what I do.
Previous post I wrote about directing. It was attempt to name what I need to master. Big necessity of visual storytelling as composition and attention to details which could summarize in complication of Mise en Scene. Even when I publish texts, I know they are not perfect. Not always I believe they are totally finished, I see that could add more scenes, but afraid to make worse path of story. But all of that in total is drafts which could be improved over and over. I tell stories and try to learn tell them better each time.
Theater is not novel. Novel have first page and last one, it’s finished in perception. For theater each text is like some kind of culinary book. There are all necessary ingredients which mentioned how it should be from start to finish. And there is cook, which add more or less salt and sugar and change it step by step making own dish using same receipt. Here mastering of writer could be improving product to make it more ready to eat with less cooking time.
24 June, 2019
Monday should be mood for work. Too much noise: builders and lawn movers.
I listen on YouTube beautiful piano music and try to concentrate at least on writing post.
Writing for theater is more complicated than other fiction. Stage itself. It’s difficult to put on stage plot with car racing and helicopters. Believe me, I was thinking about it a lot for story...
Playwright is not just writer… Actor? Probably, because we invent what character will think in pause of lines. We not write “He sit on the edge of the chair, his thoughts were far away and he was remembering fishing with his granny. It was most unusual experience, but as said grandpa “bet is the bet”. He looked at woman who was in front of him and wonder why she never told him of her childhood and noticed that she took from her pocket ax with golden holder.” This wild imagination could be only in novel.
Main question is playwright a director of own story? Is playwright shy theater director who sees whole story written by herself and could the same way see what wrote other playwrights. Should I storyboard classic plays and make “rehearsal notes” to better understand craft instead of put all this information in new texts?
What will change if it will be only polishing of one language? As usual ambitions of polymath are in conflict with doing one thing as best as possible. And I am totally quiet about my huge unrealized project to learn to draw for better text illustrating.
I know, too many questions. Most easy is to return back to stories for kids, add quantity and think later. It’s far away of my understanding of craft, but it’s still be writing.
If remember what’s going on in our country, I would like to have an election as helpful tool to which direction to go next step, with all that first month, first 100 days and all stuff.
18 June, 2019.
Finally, everything is united.
Still think that's some kind of magic when from such draft:
There is finished new text:
Retreat: writing for stage.pdf
17 June, 2019
Yesterday’s thunderstorm with rain stopped only today’s morning, but I still hoped that upload text today.
After big detailed one more revision on paper, I was such tired that I made hour workout to clear my mind. Then I put all tiny many changes in the text, looked at the clock – I almost missed evening workout. And instead of start to work on the pictures, I made it.
Today was holiday after yesterday’s holiday and was quiet to work. I think with noise I will manage with illustrations. When everything will be finished, I will publish text on-line.
In this story are characters, whom for a long time I wanted to put in some play. It’s new text, not how I wanted to unite them before. They are director, actor and playwright. You could search for personal story, but not forget that’s fiction story in the whole.
Little glimpse at the characters:
14 June, 2019
In short what I already accomplished this week.
At 12 of June, Wednesday, I wrote new play. 7 scenes, 5 characters. More than 3500 words.
Will be more revisions, probably costumes for dolls and storyboard.
Yesterday afternoon was terribly hot and I changed again my haircut to shorter. No matter that all time wear baseball cap.
Today I wanted to make fotos near something green. Was even hotter. It's +38C at 11a.m.
Now everyone already hope for rain after such unusual weather.
So today I made foto on the balcony. Not proper background (green it's against birds visiting) or lighting, but it should be noticed haircut.
When everything be ready, will upload new text, some day next week. Let's see how it all works.
10 June, 2019
If turn loud enough zen music, it’s almost bearable to make one more revision during day with all noises around.
At first wanted to boast, this day in 2010 received my first diploma as playwright. It’s 58 text of play in English, if counted right. It without texts for kids and I didn’t know how to add to them texts in Ukrainian and Russian. So decided not to make impressive number, because back in 2010 I not thought for a moment that will write on English.
In this story I didn’t make storyboard, just poster. So new text.
9 June, 2019
Never thought it will be my story, but I became Sunday’s writer. Or person who has a chance to write whole draft of new story only on Sunday.
It already not first story which I finish during whole Sunday. The same was with previous story “Meeting”. Today I wrote little play, more than 2500 words for 4 characters.
With this never ending story of whole day building noise of building building, all my stories written in early mornings, from Monday till Saturday including, are weak. Usually at Sunday I have idea of whole story, new story and it became complete. Of course I will need few mornings for revising. Because now I only finished it.
Hope it won’t be big spoiler if write it’s title “Burnout”. Today in e-mail article about burnout was in newsletters about: writing, paining and even fitness. I think it’s strong problem. Perhaps added there my own feelings and thoughts. But as always in the end I wrote hilarious comedy.
I know that it will be better to finish on Sunday previous texts, but ideas come to my mind all the time. So, someday, I will manage it. Of course time to time I want to make like in cartoon, when tiniest character screams in bass – quiet. But before that I will publish what is finished, not was in plans of finishing.
3 June, 2019
In one of the articles about writers, it was humorous piece, I read that writer “has begging for approval in the eyes”. It’s awful truth about which we all the time forget. Not about patting on the shoulder daily. It’s about right to write or do anything else.
I will tell you one thing, but don’t tell anybody that was writer’s words: humanity could live without literature. Period. If you need more proves remember about how unsuccessful are programs around the world in convincing children in benefits of reading. When stand in the queue or on the streets, it’s rare to see toddler with some kind of toy, usually it’s mother’s phone in front of them and kid watch cartoons. Later will be almost impossible to teach that children to read black letters on white paper and everything in text should work only with power of imagination. This is without sounds, music, endless moving objects.
And with this problem in literature it’s crazy idea of new titles which came daily and articles “75 most important books of June”. Who besides other writers is still reading at least something?
One more idea which I heard somewhere at TED talk recently: “I don’t want to read story which imagined writer, because I think s/he is wrong about plot and characters.” Somewhere in quietness fallen all classic literature on the floor. Could we add possibility to Hamlet marry Ophelia or should she choose Fortinbras this time? Probably my conclusion that adults couldn’t be interested in “Choose Your Own Adventure” was not correct.
Approval, it’s good, but not everything. Better if you have advice or direction. You know, some kind of GPS, which could help writer with many ideas choose road what will be more suitable for each story. When everything is shiny and you can’t with cold head analyze what you do, you need such kind of help. Possibilities and opportunities could also be overwhelming.
For good or bad, but my force it’s not seek of approval, it’s curiosity. I want to learn more, I love knowledges. From there are all my experiments with languages to the level of idea “Eurocomprehension”, project which is now dead on-line. Romance languages there were based on French, so not such easy experiment was for me.
In English I still receive daily words to widen my passive vocabulary, I love to read and find new. But my problem, that I want to add something else, not only words to tell a story. It could be because of past of writing in newspapers or today’s addictiveness of the images. With such amount of similar images daily lost importance of storytelling part of picture. And all amounts of fotos on-line underline that not everyone could make fotos. Interesting and what worth attention is rare and still could be found only in magazines and newspapers.
After that everyone are making fotos and photographers are still rare we return to same problem with writing. Write everyone and about everything. It is in social media, books and who knows where else. There are people who write because can’t live other ways and people who wants to be also creative or also could write book as that writer, book of whom read on last week. At first place they didn’t need approval, they need enormous amount of articles, blogs and books “how to write”.
Literature makes from readers writers and it’s huge addiction which should be analyzed and have special annual conference about it. I could tell about myself – in Ukrainian it was translation of Stefan Zweig’s Brief einer Unbekannten. It was Ukrainian language, after which I said to myself, I want to use and write on Ukrainian like that.
At English it was Oscar Wilde's “Importance of being earnest”. I saw that plays not only could be easy read but it possible to write them as profession.
Profession of artist, here we have bumping road. When I first came to painting it was part of the idea of making background for my plays. Later it became part of theme writing about painters, because of reading and attempts to improve your skill, think a lot. Here is most important not to think for a moment that you are painter or something like that. Theater box gives opportunity to try every possible role as creator also. But road of becoming a painter is dead end for writer, it should be illustrations to your words, not main aim. If lost, try to check – if it is still looks like children book with illustration – fine. If you already gathering paintings to personal exhibition you need to choose between brush and keyboards.
Art and painting by the way also aren’t such necessary. What people want? No, not to buy one more picture in their collection, which later their descendants will sell on auction. People want to learn paint the same as artist, but by themselves. It’s enormously popular branch now – to teach others skills which didn’t help yourself to sell more own art.
This idea of approval is really strong point, because time to time we ask ourselves – what we do and make is proper job? Should we be somewhere else, doing something else? When we will prove that our way of living is best possible for us? You know, was such saying – person who doesn’t know what to do choose journalistic. It has negative and positive meaning also. Positive is that you try much more branches of life that is possible, as example, in Chemistry department and decide what you like the most.
Time to time I have wish to change somehow my profession. After journalistic I became playwright. And as next level I tried writing usual fiction as short stories with novels in perspective. It’s not enough satisfying for me. For someone it could be enough, not for me. I added storyboards to theater plays, I wrote cinematic stories. Few years ago, I was on the crossroad and I choose between path of education in English linguistic or theater directing. I didn’t manage formal education, but as you see I received some results in English – I learned how to write long and boring posts.
What about directing? Ambitious impudence in it’s clear form with addition of vanity and strong believe that in that road is strong, high wall without chances of moving forward. But this story is still attractive and enormous challenge to me. I am realist even when talk about impossible dream. I didn’t mention film directing, because there are knowledges which for now is not on my level of comprehension. No matter that I want to improve storyboarding part of my texts.
Have some ideas what to do next. In English improving started to look at Linguistic of English language. In writing as usual few projects on research stage.
As said before, removed old posts, because it’s random talks about everything, trifles. They changes with me, they not carved on stone and should be removed frequently.
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