 Next aim. Sky in jar. Change of plans. White Christmas? Hello 20th! 2020! 70!!! Feeling of New Year. After delay, winter. Preferences. Merry Christmas! Christmas mood. Dancing snowflakes. Father Christmas stable. Fawn on the streets. Planes in love. Writing is pleasure. Weekend. Morning motivation. Tea in London. Puppy and hat. Observations. Gym bunnies. Writer’s fuel. Impermanence. Snow date. Cosy image. 19.01.2020 Today is day of Epiphany. Memory day of Криваве Водохреща in 2014. Also bodies of Ukrainians who died in plain crash in Iran delivered back in Ukraine. I work on preparation to making illustrations to the story. Today I made backdrop, which should bring feeling of the spring to the story.    And started to work on the characters. I think it’s interesting idea to add tattoo to one of them. Who remember, it’s last summer’s story about bikers. Because you know me, if I have prop I will use it endless times.  Proud that managed to draw it. I think it resembles foto from Google.  Spoiler: tattoo hasn’t connection with the story or character, I just wanted to make something creative. 17.01.2020 Before decide which text to write next, because I have doubts as usual about next step. I decided to made something constructive. Revised old text. I am not in perfect shape to write new text, so it’s proper time to polish old story. It’s text from August 2019 and now I add there two new characters, others left the same and remade it for new revision. Names left the same, because decided that way of story last year. Add few jokes, probably it will help story. And instead of autumn it will take place in the spring. For it will be necessary costumes and backdrop, so it gives enough time for revising. Text now is few scenes or 1400 words longer. 16.01.2020 Today is memory day in Ukraine. (“В Україні відзначають День пам'яті кіборгів, які захищали донецький аеропорт у 2014-2015 роках.”) For second day in a row I again sneeze all the time and box of handkerchiefs is near me. Probably because of mixing this factors came to me idea for next story. Idea is lovely, because there I could add watercolour with spring vibes. For everything else in text I need research. For painting with watercolour I need to feel myself a little bit better, because sneezing could make results too creative. 14 January, 2020. New micro. I put numbers in the micro also, it's 49.  14.01.2020 Старий Новий Рік!  11 January, 2020. I had to not publish already two texts because of external reasons, so I write what is possible to publish. Probably idea to this story came to my mind after unsuccessful attempts, few nights in the row, to made beautiful fotos of moon in evening. Something as “Guarda che luna”, but without such drama. I think it’s cinematic story, so I put it to the scripts. And add numbers there, it’s 10. No matter that today is murky weather with rain I decided to use watercolour to the poster.     Only watercolour could bring me results which I needed.   At first I wanted to add gouache on the top.  Then decided that gold will be much better.  And final were dots, which made with have no idea how it named special for dot making sticks. Choice of colour is unusual, but in last moment found out that's haven't proper white and postpone all story because of that is too much.  And finally, today's text.  9 January, 2020. Today I won’t publish new text, it’s not proper. Publish that micro later. I decided to write, because it’s my work. Tragedies, endless holidays, there are lot of reasons to made a pause. In December I was ill and didn’t make what planned. This year also started not in winter writing. I had to postpone draft with new inspiring theme, because now it’s unsuitable to publish, maybe could write more stories to it character. I used this pause to think. I look at the newsletters which receive daily. Now everywhere already preparation to StValentine’s day. So idea with winter is outdated. And next I received advertisement about botanic illustration course. Maybe it’s good idea to skip a winter, no matter how many ideas I have for it. Just move forward. So please, won’t be scared when next texts will have warmer themes and will be some spring in the air. 8.01.2020 Another tragedy connected with Ukraine. As usual it will change plans of what will be published and when next. Thanks for understanding. 6 January, 2020. Today is our Christmas eve and even are some snow on the surface. It’s far away from white Christmas, but it’s not such warm as was few days ago. Archive of blog put in the bottom of the page. Олег Скрипка та Ле Гранд Оркестр "Щедрик" (мультфільм) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dg1eMpFfexk З Різдвом Христовим!  4 January, 2020. Had idea for this look before holidays, but managed to made fotos only today. Hello 20th! I thought it should be something in style, black and white.   And of course, me is me.  3 January, 2020. Beautiful number, something inspiring is in this. No matter, when you believe starts new decade, we have 2020. Let’s make them roaring 20th. I decided to start year with play where is grain of irony, mainly self irony. And I add number to each play, because every end of the year for me is difficult to count them. Later will add numbers to other writings. And this play is №85 in English.  Spectator's thoughts.pdf Happy New Year 2020!!  30 December, 2019. Pity that after soar throat still my voice didn’t returned. On the other side I just could whisper “let’s get loud”. End of the year and I counted how many new texts published this year. If counted right - 70!!! I think it deserves victorious scream. “You know, I’m happy”. No matter, what’s going on in life, just do what love, spend time with it and later count results. Satisfaction is worth it. + Again watched Ukrainian TV shows on YouTube. This time I liked new version of popular in whole world our song “Carol of the bells”. Found video, where it’s only in second part, easy to recognize, when will be national costumes. Женский Квартал 2019: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DdJpIE0YTjA Новогодняя Прожарка Владимира Дантеса In short, woman tries to receive as holiday gift new phone. He didn’t understand her clues, because bought her as gift car. It didn’t mention, but if it’s car which will be perfect for patriotic Ukrainian woman, it should be only Maserati, because of resemblance to our national emblem. Idea with phone she left, this time for Christmas (7 January). Hilarious video. 29 December, 2019. One more little play this year.  Feeling of New Year.pdf 28 December, 2019. Probably winter looked at calendar, understood that delayed with weather and today we have snow.  And it’s really beautiful. When I returned from home to home, already switched on street lights and snow fells such slowly, real winter fairy tale with multi color lights in the windows. Really, holidays are coming.  Yes, decorated tree. 26 December, 2019. We still have rain as winter weather. This few days I tried to tune more holiday spirit, watched in YouTube our entertainment shows which didn’t watch few previous months. Sometimes there are even jokes, but their resemblance in everything is scary. Two most popular Ukrainian shows made jokes with ideas what should choose as movie location in Ukraine Tom Cruise. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1IAarQ5qKE Том Круз снимет фильм в Украине! Новости украинского кинематографа – Дизель Шоу 2019 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IaXgGpmjUBI Фильмы ужасов с Томом Крузом по-украински | Вечерний Квартал 2019 Lot of ideas for script, for sure, but necessary are our terrible roads and it should be horror definitely. Movies are main entertainment, but now not every movies are accepted by spectators. In every news are about “Cats”. As everyone saw trailer. Honestly, first thought was – I won’t watch this film. Interesting decision for person who likes musicals and watched endless times “Mamma Mia!” Emotions are not for me, because I try to analyse why I decide this. Music is perfect, no matter that I am totally absolutely crazy for “Phantom of the Opera” like everyone remember. I think problem is in visual. Because actors choice couldn’t be discussed, but choice of colours could. Something in that shades or combinations, it makes video unbearable. There are special people who could be asked and explain it in more details which exactly wrong choices in colour scheme for movie were made. Probably it’s my preference, but I could say that I like more clear visual and more contrast colours. If return to beginning of post. Top gun Maverick trailer, perfect visual, colours are on the place and I will see it, not only because dad loves every movie where are planes. As perfect visual in movies for me is still Hero 2002 at first place. With endless doubt which part is favourite - red, blue or green. And in green falls fabric, with my strong association with scene in the Bodyguard 1992. 24 December, 2019. Merry Christmas to everyone who celebrates! This year I used postcards with wishes on different languages. I received them from my pen-friends through years. On the top and the bottom Christmas wishes from Lviv.           23 December, 2019. I don’t know, but maybe something is in the air, but everyone are mad about end of decade. Analyze results, make comparison. As far as I remember, such kind of madness previous time was when everyone waited for 2000. To make conclusions for decade it’s stupid, at it beginning I had no idea that will be write on English, just started to write plays in Ukrainian. Results of the year, charts. I wanted to make something like that, but for what? Most popular is about movies. As person who watch movies and serials almost daily I terribly little write about them. I felt uncomfortable, looked through my blog and find, my masterpiece in film review, which wrote in January. Who didn’t read or forgot, just reread it. I think there I used my journalistic writing in the whole. Polar. Movie review.pdf Today we have rainy day, so I turned on Christmas music and wrote this story for adults.  22.12.2019 Today was +11 and it was as real spring. Yes, I made promenade from one flat to other. I feel myself a little better, but still sneeze. In Lviv is green grass, sun and bloom everything which decided to bloom. Total impression that next will be Easter, not Christmas. I haven’t mood to write anything resembling winter. Probably till 25 will write something for the holiday. I am not sure about length or theme, will see. 21 December, 2019. Little fairy tale.  Dancing snowflakes.pdf 20 December, 2019. Yesterday at evening returned fever, but this time with chills. Today didn’t sleep since 4 o’clock in the morning, terrible flu. At home walks accompanied by box of handkerchiefs. Yes, I am not in perfect form, I will survive. I invented one more story, will publish it today, because checked our calendar for tomorrow. I think it is fairy tale for kids.  Father Christmas stable.pdf 19 December, 2019. Fever is less today, but sneeze every minute. I drink tea with raspberries and try everything which necessary. Today we have St Nicolas day and I tried to write little fairy tale for kids, hope it worked as story.  Fawn on the streets.pdf 18 December, 2019. At night long and loud worked plane’s engines and I invented such micro. For details crucial were props which already have. It’s have elements of fairy tale, for adults.  17 December, 2019. I wrote endless times that I like not only write, but also read about writing. I want to improve my craft and deep inside have wish for Master Degree in fiction writing because I need even more information. As everyone I not always have mood or time for writing, sometimes I need borders and postpone writing, because I need something else to do. But when I read that writers over and over again write how writing is awful difficult activity, I want to say – just drop it. No matter how cool is to be writer, drop it. In writing is difficult revising, because how many times you should read this text and make changes. But when for few hours you are deep in fiction story and you forget what time is it and don’t notice words count is pleasure. I stopped to say that I really love what I do as writing because of few reasons. First of it – it’s not normal be happy from your work and not wait for “saint Friday” when you could forget about it. I could write on weekend and holidays. Second is because of reading other writers. Should be pain, writers block or something terrible, because it’s improperly to say that for you is easy to write, create new ideas. And when I say that’s easy, I know what I mean. I never will write such amount of text on foreign language if it was painful. Then and than is painful to remember, to invent new story isn’t. + Probably weather was deceptively warm and for now I have soar throat. 16.12.2019 Finally foto of my working monitor.  Now could be easely to find out what is going on in computer. And also on foto could be seen fragment of napkin under monitor, if someone pay attention to details. It was gift from one of my pen-friends. It's castles of Scotland. 15 December, 2019. At least today was sunny Sunday and I spent some time out of flat. Just so warm and wonderful. But still finished and made fotos to micro. Of course, characters are proper for story for kids, but what I wrote it’s adult story. Hope it’s fun, because I smiled and laughed when wrote it. As usual, heard advertisement on radio and my wild imagination started to work. I think always is perfect time for new text. And I noticed, that looks like Snowpeople are most popular characters in my writing during December. They just white and cute, as should be snowman.  13 December, 2019. There is endless wish to write something positive, when at radio reminded few times that today is 13, Friday. No matter that in Ukraine today is St Andrew day, every superstition is also exists. In the morning I prefer motivation, but not just “You can do it, you deserve it” and other boring slogans. I love humorous motivation, because in our life laugh is necessary to move further. Few motivations which I liked, received at Pinterest and when searched for fitness exercises, because bookmark is out of reach. “During night have many smart thoughts, even don’t know with which stupid to start a day.” “- I will go now to the gym. - Good idea. - You should say that I don’t need it”. “In general women don’t have flaws, only special effects.” “Sit on diet, lost 2 kilos, head stopped to work, probably it was brain.” And one classical motivation, just it had lovely picture on it. “All is possible. For impossible there is need of more time.” Hope such morning quotes will change mood of everyone, no matter what happens in our life. + Today is such murky day, without sun. I was busy in the kitchen. For a moment believed that winter could return. Checked weather forecast, for Monday is 9,4. I think it's perfect for this time of year, who knows maybe will be in reality 9,6. 12.12.2019 Today few fotos which are connected with yesterday’s post. First, I tried to recreate England obsession foto, which didn’t find.  It’s my cup, square mirror to the bag, earrings, key chain. And now fotos of my printer.   It is really such huge.  Bought this as second-hand technique from Europe. It has words written in Dutch.  I need something which prints a lot of pages, for each draft. Now it’s not works as at time when I became it’s owner. There is some details, which is impossible to find, because it’s outdated. And of course problems are with cartridge to it. When it “eats” paper, black powder is everywhere. I think I wrote and dream about new printer already for two or even three years. + About writing. Whole night was snow, at morning it melted, and I was happy because haven't proper mood for Christmas stories. I have for them ideas, but I think it will near 19th of December, when switch on Christmas tree in Lviv. Later it will be yearly from Christmas to Christmas - from 25 December to 7 January, because depending of Church is when celebrate it. Celebration is main. There is saying, which will shock religious people, but accept it with tolerance. From St Roman's day till Jordan's day is ukrainian Ramadan. Dates - from 1 of December till 19 of January. 11 December, 2019. Warning – in post are a lot of fotos. I searched for particular foto in archieve, didn’t find, so put instead others. Yesterday I switched off computer a little bit early, so Pinterest I checked not as always in evening, but today at morning. It helped change mood after our news, because from them is easy to get tired, all that “another morning in paradise” could be depressing. There are already different ideas of Christmas illustrations with different cities. Was idea with London. I haven’t template for London, but other props could be found. Probably long time readers remember my obsession with London and all that visual resembles it. Couldn’t find that foto. As wrote in, I think, “Multilingual collapse”, something about that want to visit London to say there “London is capital of Great Britain”, because that is only one place on the planet where this sentence is not sounds senseless to learn at every study book. Again I didn’t manage to write proper story before Christmas. About computer. Repair of monitor will cost 30% of new one. I need working computer, so will see what results will be after repair. I checked prices, compared, look for special sale. Everything comparable and I am stubborn – I made one more research, I checked prices in other countries. I took calculator to check myself. In our shop with sale price, monitors in 4 times expensive. Maybe we live in country which could pay overprice for everything? Second hand costs as new one in other country with better seize and possibilities. Probably I found problem in Ukraine economic stagnation – from where are such prices and enormous bills for everything? Today currency 1$-23.60, based on prices in shop 1$ - near 100. Few years ago it was 1$ - 8, about that remind all shop assistants in each shop. I search for other foto, but instead found fotos of my old computers.  First one.  The one at which I am working now. I think foto autumn 2014.  And that is few years later. After all that playing with calculator, I returned to what about write next project. I need to switch mind before revision. I looked at perfumes, there should be some French vocabulary. I am not sure that manage it on my level. Next I checked vocabulary for avia story. Found my visual dictionary which could be helpful to organize new words in my mind.     I know it’s not good idea without working properly printer, but I just check possible future projects. As mentioned above, I searched for one foto. Instead found a lot of not necessary. And also I found my fotos from 1994, as I wrote before, Yalta. That was time when I decided that be a writer is best profession for me.   And finally, today’s micro.  + I checked everywhere, I didn't find foto of monitor about which is all fuss. It's LCD monitor, 19 inches and because it was black monitor without image it has to be repaired. 10 December, 2019. I tried to write something lovely for kids, it is winter story. Hope on the text is unnoticeable sleepless night. I am professional writer and I think illustrations are really cute.  Puppy and a hat.pdf 10.12.2019 8.30 About last night's experience. I decided to divide this thoughts with post. Later I plan to write and make fotos to story about puppy, which I invented yesterday during evening workout. Because I couldn't left this cute without attention. Negotiations is difficult work. It's wish to be heard, to say what is really important for you. It's not always results which are planned to, sometimes it's just start of conversation. Hours of comments of what should or was said never resembles what was really said. Negotiations it's not only convince to receive what you want, negotiations it's find out what is really going on. Real conversation is always better than bunch of imagined stories. How it should be always complicated, but sometimes first step as wish to direct conversation is the same importance as result of all negotiations in the future. + Still thinking about negotiations. It took place in Paris, on the third side, because it's how it work when direct conversation doesn't works. That idea of neutral could looks strange when there are a lot of questions to this neutral place. Yesterday it gave a little shadow of not easy meeting. But when sides are afraid that everything will went worse, they choose more complicated road.Truth that this negotiation brought not enought answers, sometimes it looks like multiplied questions. 10.12.2019 1.25 I finished to watch online briefing in Paris, and when turned down sound, in other flats TV is still working. For us it's really important. 9.12.2019 Today dad found service center which agree to check what is wrong. Results if it could be repaired will be at the end of this week. There is a big chance that problem is in monitor. When they heard that it is 12 years old they even didn't want to check it. Just throw it away and buy new one with normal computer was answer. I wish to... In other news, today during day will be clear if will be new Maydan in Ukraine or not. When at least something will be clear, I will think what to write. In working computer I have not much reference materials for projects. Found only about perfumes, avia story which many years ago supposed to be written before Christmas. As I mention my printer is not good for writing big texts with revisions. I haven't proper mood for Christmas miracles stories. Later will figure out what to write. P.S.: After I finally came home, I thought that probably could generate some idea for story. Didn't want to use ideas which have. Sometimes it helps to just play with different props. Sometimes it didn't help and new idea don't come. But left lovely fotos, which are still cute, even without a story. Draft name for it - puppy and a hat.   8.12.2019 Today in Ukraine is day of mourning. I mainly try to figure our which newsletters better to unsubscribe, because I too easy receive overloaded box when something isn't working. I know that most important problem that reality overshadows my writing. I will think how to stop habit to tell everything aloud. I am talkative person, love to answer questions, maybe conversational it's not proper tone for blogging. Too bad that in my case it became epistolar genre. Was idea few days ago mention anniversary start of blog in 2014. I refused it, because didn't want to reread old posts, something I remember, something not. I write all the time, what sence is to underline it. 7 December, 2019. I decided not to make from it micro, just few lines. Today is St Katherine's day, so I walk in beauty shop and buy myself new mascara with sale tag. In this beauty shop also there are lot of New Year's decorations and even sell toys. It was morning of Saturday, not a lot of customers. Little boy saw some toy and asked mom to buy it. Mom said - if you will behave St Nicolas will bring it to you. (Mark - we have St Nicolas day at 19 of December). There were also two girlfriends which choose face masks. And one said to other, loudly enough that all women which were in the shop hear her - How I should misbehave to receive all I want as a holiday gift. All laughted.How changes our priorities when we became adults... In other news, I won over google and it started to believe that I am human. Now I think that I need notebook for writing, because learned how use it for research in internet. 6.12.2019 Announcement: At first I didn't want to write that, I am tired how readers disappear when mention even tiniest problem and when I solved everything return like nothing happened. It started yesterday, my main computer stop to work. It won't be fotos of black screen, I know no one believes. So I connect to internet my writer's computer where I write and try not to use it for internet. How it looks like, could be find at the end of some older text. It has some problems. As Google don't give me chance to prove that I m not a robot, so use Yahoo. Instagram show nothing and for other sites it has other warnings. YouTube and mail box in contrary work perfectly. I haven't slightest idea how long will take it repair or how much cost. For buying new one I can't even dream. You could notice that in my texts probably more mistakes it's almost impossible to print on my old printer, so revision is not such clear. When were previous problems I explained why didn't buy smarthphone few years ago. Than it had awful cameras, and they were too big for my hand. Now all that problems solved, but price is too much for me. Repeat myself - details of my problems needs no one, I remember about that, so just return to your Christmas mood. I have ideas for texts and props for them, If it will be possible, I will write and upload them. When will be text, will be post. P.S.: Problem with computer still not solved, next attempt will be next week. How I wish that all that problems was miracle solved for me, no matter how stupid it looks, with ribbon on it and I just could bother what to write next. But magic helpers exists only in fairy tales. 5 December, 2019. I hadn’t in plan to publish today next micro. I just love words, and when I saw this as word of the day with definition, I knew what I should write. Of course, I spent time watching videos about workouts in gym for women. I workout at home, with different equipment, so I learned some new vocabulary. There are few jokes. I think when person tries to improve something it’s always proper road. How you do that improvement and which efforts it costs you it’s not for everyone knowledge. In text I invented fresh direction in fitness, hope it will stay only in fiction. This text is also not winter connected, but characters could be recognised from other text.  4 December, 2019. Idea for today’s text came after combination of fotos which I made and reading a lot of articles about writing. Today’s text has coffee as poster. I am not such coffee person, so I exaggerate in story. I accept good coffee and believe in it’s power. As a person with low blood pressure 90/60 is perfect for me, if higher for me it’s uncomfortable, I could drink more coffee without counting, but usually it’s one cup with milk and sugar during breakfast.  During revising text I find out unpleasant for me news. Changed owner of provider of my alternative emergency access to internet. So when as usual fail main, I haven’t chance to solve it the same quickly as usual. Now owner is from other country. The same was with mobile operator and tariff changed enormously. P.S.: I know that story doesn't connected with snow or winter. It's creativity and here rules could be moved in any direction. This is story which could happen in any day, no matter which weather it is. 3 December, 2019. In the morning was heavy snow and I even made few fabulous fotos of winter. I love to start morning with beautiful fotos.  Later I started to write text. I have few ideas, refused them. Wrote one micro and decided not to publish it. You know “it didn’t bring joy” in comparing with yesterday’s text, which I think is very sweet and for now my favorite text in December. I put draft in postponed and later will decide if it should be ever published. I don’t want to create challenge and write fiction daily in December. In general, I hate deja vu. So I try not to repeat myself. And I don’t want to promise anything with texts, because I prefer to keep promises.  And what we have now is melting snow. If it melt completely as promised, I will search other topics what about to write, talking not only about snow. P.S.: I think for today’s post I could add even more fotos.  Sunset, snow didn’t melt as predicted. It’s not sun shining, it’s lamps in nearest stadium, today without music and screams of fans.  And this is later evening attempt to made a foto of moon.  This is not worked in zooming foto of moon. It’s not a bird, it’s a plane. 2 December, 2019. Yes, snow is already noticeable and I can’t ignore changes of seasons.  Snow today is whole day.  I uploaded new micro. This time connected with winter. I have mood to write something romantic and snowy.  1 December, 2019. Like I warned, I archived posts for previous two months. Links are on top. December I decided to start with new micro. Story is from first person's point of view, but it's still fiction. Resembles with writer is accidental.  Blog 3 June-30 September 2019.pdf Blog 1 October -30 November 2019.pdf   Mail: aksioma@neonet.ua Main Copyright © 2003-2020. All rights reserved |