  After project. Tea-room’s investigation. Focus on progress. Today. Beautiful blossoming. Such lovely. One more short story. More time. Without Paris? Matchmaking as daily routine. Writer’s surprise. Wonderful chartreuse. Wrong writing. Why not? Winner is… Weibermacht. Stunning boredom. Strange things happen. Short story. Saved teapot. Starting point. Scripturiency. Sunday’s reading. Spring mood. 24 April 2019 After each finished project I felt myself some kind of lost for a moment. Each project had connected with it story which was long or short for every tiny project. Play which I published yesterday, it’s first theater play this year. Were moments that I believed that won’t write more plays. But then I made it and am proud of result. Story is lovely, I add there illustrations. No matter that it took few years to accomplish it. As always there is bunch of next stories which should be written, revised, illustrated. Probably not on this week will be next text. At 26 is sad day of Chernobyl and on Sunday is Великдень/Easter. So I didn’t plan anything special on that dates. I don’t know why we pay so much attention to dates, but it’s normal that you are checking them, remember them. As when looking at next month at first you check important for you dates. In May for me it’s my mother’s parents remembrance days, on 5th – grandpa’s birthday and on 21st birthday had granny, in honor of whom I am named. And this is part of own chronology, which is always some kind of inner planning. Yesterday story I think paused for now England connected stories. As I wrote before I thought that better will be to change location to France, but my personal not successful journey in this language denied this plans. The same is with Spanish and Italian. I will think if I could remove plots to different locations, made it many times, maybe find solutions this time also. US in general is perfect for stories of European immigrants. When I talk about languages, I all the time try to remind myself that in reality I already work and improve foreign language and this is English. And I could work in it as multilingual writer and I haven’t necessity in general, proving knowledge of one more foreign language. So I will try to listen and read more American English content. I am storyteller and as painter for me is not such important tool pencil or watercolor aka language, I just want to draw next picture or new dress sketch. 23 April 2019 Today I finished last costume for character. If someone remember my adventure to find needle for knitting. There are few fotos how I used it during creating costume.   After this I worked on illustrations for whole play. This text is play, it has Bartholomew, but he works as background mainly. I stop, any spoilers about the end. This story is more romantic than mystery. Now is time for reading:  Tea-room's investigation. pdf 19.40 22 April 2019 It’s not first time when spam in my e-mail box leads to deep thinking about something. I don’t know why, but for few days there are advertisements about language challenges. It’s all suggested with some special price and all that, but usually I read what they proposed. I love languages. I use different languages. I am multilingual writer in general. Depending of the new language law in few days will be clear what to do with Norsk. I never had idea that will need to think about it. So back to the learning language challenges. Learning language, participate in some school daily for 90 days and you will be at new level after it. To make plans for 90 days is crazy in our country, everything changes such quickly. I mean that idea was interesting about 90 days to improve one language, it could be also self study and could make amazing result. If start from weekly challenges. But then I was thinking – what for? Do I plan to write on French? As far as I know myself, I am not insane to such level. What I could achieve after it? Strong A2 or weak B1 without chance to achieve B2. Mainly it’s difficult gap for everyone who learns French. Spanish? Idea is inspiring, but write on it after achieving A1 or even A2 is not level for writer. What left? As usual English. If I put time and efforts to this language it will be next level something between proficiency and fluency, at least in writing. I need more time for extensive reading and then work with vocabulary. Still have from five to ten unknown words daily. Yes, I know, I choose now more complicated magazines with wider vocabulary. Which language to choose? My habit and all my reference books are British English, it just happened that way. My story about Bartholomew takes place somewhere near London. For others drafts location could be easy changed or is not important. Problem is that I unsubscribed from all their newspapers. I really tried to read it, but it’s endless moaning about Brexit and what to do with it. They had no idea what to do and when decided, changed their mind. And it’s main news daily, everything else is in shadow of not important. Look at Ukraine. We make decisions, move there and during process try to find out what about was all fuss. What left this time? American English. As advantage I have vocabulary, a little outdated, but solid with golden edge of the pages. And I also bought almost new paper school dictionary, didn’t know when it was published, but copyright from 1993. It has some illustrations and in color printed, so I hope that survive. All world learns American English, so there are enough resources to focus on the progress. If I pay attention to the spelling, I will manage it somehow. There are enough out of copyright books to learn vocabulary. Improving English for better writing I think is more reasonable decision than self-studding marathon of one more language where level of advance is far away for me. Probably it sounds too practical. But like with workout, only motivation which you need is changes in your measurement. If complex didn’t make changes, you try new and contrary you try to do more workouts which helped you lost more than five centimeters in measurement. It’s normal for human, spend time at what gives you better results. Preparation of costumes took me more time than I planned, had other daily priorities. When everything finish will make fotos and put text on-line. 10.10 P.S.: I don't think that somehow changed my decision about version of English that after finished watching "Endeavour" I started watch "Agent Carter". By the way idea with typewriter is brilliant. 21 April 2019 Today is: My father's birthday Вербна Неділя Happy Easter Busy Sunday, isn't it? 19 April 2019 I want to start with foto of magnificent moon today in the early morning.  Yesterday I wrote about amazing blossoming of spring everywhere. But better is to show it.  This is shy spring view with school building on the left, school which graduated I and my parents. This view is reason because I don’t feel nostalgic to school times.   Beautiful blossoming and enormously blue sky as background.  My shadow during making photos.  Softest white, just perfect how it is. P.S.: Debates or emotional conversation between candidates to Ukraine’s next President finished. Somehow it could be called democracy in Ukrainian taste. I deleted post with image of one of candidates, because we will have “silence” time before election. 18 April 2019 Whole day from morning was out of house and far away from computer, needed to do different not creativity connected errands and chores. But what I can say about today – such lovely. No matter that everywhere is in endless repair, work on roads and problems with transport. Today is lovely. Warm weather, amazing, tender smell of blooming is everywhere. Lovely. I don’t plan or promise to upload one more text this week, but I am thinking what to do next. In artist connected play I could add some drawing, I already had idea for them. For sure there will be red, not such scary and aggressive as in the text with Key. As research now I have idea with dressmaking, there I could bring idea from “Red dress” script and make this time red not mystical, but passion color. All ideas looks inspiring in such lovely day. 17 April 2019 New text I publish today, second for character Summer Key. Again little mystery. Today I added one more short story. During revision, after that story, two texts of theatre plays now is in preparation work, mind tries to find something interesting and not connected with revision or making props. Yesterday in one of the newsletters was mentioned old book about dressmaking. I found it on site for books without copyright. There was also “books in this subject”. In short after fifth downloaded text, I stop counting how many I found. I want to write about that also. Sketching of dresses, even didn‘t mention about attractiveness of this activity. I already have knitting enthusiast as Summer Key from today’s story. Usually one person can sew and knit, not to count crocheting and needlework. But ion the rules of literature, it should be different characters for that. Key lives somewhere near London, to make everything equal dressmaker should live somewhere in US to opportunity use both spellings of English. Not all texts should be monumental, some little cosy stories also necessary as changing of activities. Improving and learning other language it’s long process. Of course for idea of dress making I will need some location (any suggestions?), specific vocabulary. I need to think about something creative, not only about next round of text revision. I read article about meaning of colours and could say that sometimes colour is just colour and don’t mean anything else. Endless obsession with red everywhere in my texts is still strong. Problem that not every tint of violet works best in sketches. And in this story red is colour of blood, so should be that.  16 April 2019 Fire at the Notre-Dame cathedral in Paris at the beginning of the Holy Week today also is main topic. I never was in Paris, but it’s part of landscape of the world how you see it, how used to it. It’s God’s house, it’s historical and art heritage. It’s reminder of fragility of everything which should remain constant. Before this fire I decided not to put Paris landscape in the play with artists. Mainly and always it’s my level of language knowledge. Now it will be not proper. I wanted to post short story today, because already made poster, but decided that I need to read it again. Need more time to notice new mistakes which were covered under previous revision marks. 15 April 2019 Revision is dangerous battle after which not every part of story survived. After I revised story about artists, I think left less than 50% of draft and in the end I liked what received. 17 scenes, 29 pages, it is always better in comparison to unfinished draft. Was lost part of murder, police investigation and somehow story lost importance of setting. Text could work without mentioning Paris? Yes, it’s unusual decision. But it my drafts there are enough France inspired or connected stories. Maybe, next time. In other news – in Bartholomew’s play next is work on costumes and setting. P.S.: On rescue operation of saving as much as possible drafts I work hard now in my creative life. And I think I forget to mention in previous posts that at first will be next story with Key (this time without Detective Inspector Alpha). It will take me one or two day to finish. Such quickly because it’s not plays for which I need preparation of costumes and make settings before make illustrations. I don’t think it’s such important, but I try to explain how I work. I try to “save” texts which almost finished and already on English, but need more critical revision. On plans is sci-fiction story which probably also will be play. Yes, I know how it looks like, when I don’t know what to do with text, I made from it theater play. After it will be bunch of texts as I mentioned about ghost of second husband. There I didn’t decide yet if strengthen Latin America flavor with deep Spanish or remove it completely. 11 April 2019 Revision it’s most boring part of work over text and there is always wish to be somewhere else, making something else. When main revision ends, I could make illustrations to new play with Bartholomew. Before that work with other drafts reminds me matchmaking as daily routine. What I try to do is to find proper unfinished story for character which need other story. For now I think about connection of Summer Key with her knitting with little short story mystery which was written in October 2018. What I had to do to make them happy together, is throw away previous main character and his sphere of interest and it will be lovely match for next published story. It’s unusual, but I found all notes which I needed to unfinished text with artists. Do I still want to write it in unchanged form? I have no idea. It should wait after Bartholomew’s revision, Summer’s story rewriting. And by the way I again found my lovely short stories to crazy couple from “Ghost of second husband”. Were times when I wanted to give them even this plot of Bartholomew. As I say, matchmaking all the time, till text will be published. I change locations, time of year, main character. I have too much drafts around me to save every plot/draft untouched, sometimes I unite two or more of them. It’s all like life, when you write character to that story, you find out that better s/he should be in other story. It’s remind card game or something, it’s usual with such enormous quantity of ideas. 9 April 2019 When I searched for additional notes to my project with artist I found draft of story, which unpublished some time ago. Idea was in October 2017, written as short story in April-May 2018 and now when I read it I saw it as play. Probably it’s not step after step road. In the end, who cares in which order will be published texts. Why not pay attention to finished story with need strong revision after remake in the play? If someone remembers, I mentioned it many posts before it’s story about Bartholomew from “Retired spies” as retired spy himself. Tiny play. 4 characters, 7 scenes, more than 3500 words, 20 pages of draft. There are some benefits of idea of morning time without news. But as side effect, after productive work, finished all after four in afternoon, I haven’t wish to check news, only check e-mail box and look at some inspiring for me web-pages. 8 April 2019 Among all news which now I try to read after midday, to have clear enough head to work in the morning, there is one forgotten – spring is here. For “fresh head” also I refused radio and instead search on-line music and put it on play list on computer to not get lost in internet from morning. Each research is dangerous activity, which could take hours to find out detail for one sentence, which reader probably not notice. So, I make a list on paper what need to do or change font of word which need additional checking and move somewhere further in the text. All our politic is painful stress with details of humorous show. If not count endless possibilities for memes on-line, it’s not such inspiring company. Most important now is wonderful chartreuse, at least is warm enough for leaves, few more days and will be blooming everywhere. Everything else – unpleasant and negative should be removed from the sight.  Writing about art also gives proper excuse to return to sketching. Even if doesn’t connected with story’s plot.  7 April 2019 It’s became more and more frequently, that I notice not from first sight that chose wrong form for writing. Probably it’s level of stress united with some tiredness and I didn’t notice obvious things which could be written in huge letters in front of my eyes. Paris is always best idea, potential for templates is better in comparing with others world’s cities, at least in art-shops which I know. City of life, always in some kind of revolution with bit of fashion, always on top. This story with artists/painters, I get after started it first time that probably it’s not theater play. I tried to remade it to novel with “choose your own adventure”. To write it in parts wasn’t fun at all. And now with all this material I decided it probably could became a play or at least novel. It didn’t worked this time also. What I receive in the story is again cinematic story, without hundred words for describing every location. And I think best will be rewrite it in such form. It could be such possibility that not all people should write novels, probably not everyone must write a book. Probably it’s normal to write cinematic stories even if you didn’t buy ticket to LA. Probably decisions wasn’t wrong, they just were obvious and all experience in writing plays and illustrating them was just part of learning and accepting – that’s how I tell stories. 5 April 2019 At first I wanted to name post Vaudeville, but thought it’s not proper for President’s election. After first tour everything should be predictable and to some level boring. But we have as leader showman and we have show. Interesting, not smartest, but show. One of the ideas was to made debates on big stadium. Probably will be battle of gladiators, there isn’t such details yet. Today was newsworthy morning, when candidates, in presence of video cameras and some journalists, took some medical tests. Blood and everything else what needed to check if candidate use alcohol or drugs. After that idea was journalists conclusions that they want most of all real results about using drugs from candidate who proposed this. I know, it’s forbidden language in our region, but I need to put this quote in original. All explanation of situation is text of whole song. “Честь короны шахматной на карте, Он от пораженья не уйдет. Мы сыграли с Талем десять партий В преферанс, в очко и на бильярде. Таль сказал: "Такой не подведет". ... Спать ложимся - вроде пешки, Просыпаемся ферзем.” Владимир Семёнович Высоцкий “Честь шахматной короны. Подготовка” After all this searching what to read about Châteaux de la Loire at English to write fictional story with mentioning Catherine de Medicis, looks like not on proper level drama. If serious, it needs more research. This time I will need books not on native language, which was when I wrote three novels drafts many years ago with Katherina as descendant of legendary Black Queen of France. Of course, I will need to totally remade it and plot story not based on gadgets, which change whole time. Meanwhile, as more recent project, I will think about putting in Paris my unfinished story about artists. It need less historic research, only time for illustrations. 4 April 2019 Whole country is now under deep stress after results of election. If not to talk about politic, which is everywhere around, all that processes and graphics with percents as results could be inspiring in different branches of life. I decided to make democratic election among languages. I tried to read not study-books, but instead announces of articles newspapers. Results are strange. I tried to read text and noted all unknown to me words. Spanish - El Mundo: 3 articles – 7 unknown words. Latin – Ephemeris: 3 articles – 5 unknown words. Italian – Corriere della Sera: 5 articles – 8 unknown words. French – Le Figaro: 5 articles – 3 unknown words. I see who is the winner here, but for clear experiment or second tour I also checked one more time. Madame Figaro: 8 articles – 5 unknown words. Probably there were signs before that, when I couldn’t find another, not France inspired templates. Awful coliseum doesn’t counts, it could be used only as template about theater on open space. Like in real election, I can’t say that I support results of it, but I receive what I received. One more time I decided how to change my story with shadow of strong female protagonist. Writing is rewriting, still. Problem which left is to drag scooters to French roads, that’s all. P.S.: I forget to add few more languages. German- Die Zeit: 3 articles - 12 unknown words. Portuguese - O Globo: 5 articles - 8 unknown words. Romanian - Libertatea: 3 articles - 7 unknown words. About Slavic languages I didn't make a research, because I could understand quite fluently all of them, but need time to figure out at which language it's written. Winner still is the same, but this time I will try to improve reading comprehension and try not to pay lot of attention to listening skills. I think it will give results. I need it at first place to read letters of Black Queen of France and they are on French, in on-line library. And name also demands some knowledge of chess. 3 April 2019 If you noticed, this word changed chain of first letter of names of all previous posts. Weibermacht or Power of Women. Why and from where? From where is simple – Endeavour 5th season, episode 1. Not such dramatic, but I already read about this artist and was reminded about it. Why? I don’t know. I just feel dissonance between what I can and what I want. So today I noticed idea of woman’s power popped everywhere in front of my eyes, till the level that I decided to search inside my archives. Many years ago, in Ukrainian language I had on-line magazine “Aksioma” and from 21 of March 2004 there was rubric “Gutenberg’s Muses”.  It looked something like that, with dominant royal blue everywhere. It was rubric which I named in other words Feminology. About place of women in journalistic and later there was about gender stereotypes, my opinion about books which were translated into Ukrainian in this branch. I wrote there from time to time. In 2004 were 7 articles, 2005 – 22, 2006 – 8. Till in 2006, in the end of April I had an idea to write about plays.  It were analytic stories at beginning, as research, as understanding tool of building dialogues. You know it all ended as result in profession of playwright. Today I looked through my old articles, they weren’t perfect, but they were professional, some moments about our country still didn’t change. When I decided to change language to English I lost huge part of confidence as what about I dare to write. Time to time I want to hide myself in writing simple kids stories with vocabulary in 300 words. Usually it’s after difficult reading on English with frequent checking vocabulary. I want to choose comfort of borders, because too much discomfort is in environment. Level of stress could be easy described if remind that live in country who has war on own territory for few years. I mean meditation rare helps, usually it’s aero-box session with workout from YouTube. Now I melted inside hobbies world. Something sweet, positive with lot of wonderful pictures. Sketches, watercolor, knitting. I still like all of them, but it’s not working as main interests in life. No matter how I try it doesn’t close completely reality, it’s noticeable at every inch around, in every direction. With new and promised more scary laws it’s easy to use to not write such emotional and later level of opposition will lost inside fear. For me is difficult to make all my life fiction, not only fictional writing, which I don’t want to refuse. But in reality everything is not really fine and yards of yarns couldn’t solve it, but helps to manage. I will think what to do with all of this. Maybe will start from searching motivational women’s quotes.  Weibermacht is different now, I liked this image as inspiration. Perhaps woman could dare to be not only a cozy mystery writer. Maybe there is some other stories to tell and to listen myself, I need to search for this answer. 2 April 2019 After hysterics of few hours and first day after election, today we receive stunning boredom to the level of idea that Ukraine, in general, could be happy without post of President. Second round still will be for candidates who think it’s their life dream. But 64% of citizens didn’t like results of election. Amazing spring day, isn’t it? Politic in our country sometimes reminds some loud hobby, as football or something like this. Everyone look at it and know much better how to play. It doesn’t matter what happened, we still wear colors of our team, just as usual. That’s reality. About fiction. My fiction writing is always a bunch of ideas. I never get bored with plots or possibilities of each character. Now I am in deep thinking if finish story about artists like it was as play or drag it to the existing character. Should I wrote a serial with Key’s character? Should I give all near easel’s story for other character? Did I mention that was 50% sale for templates and now I have bunch of little scooters for moving plein air workshop? Now it’s perfect weather to think of plein air related plots. Or I should try my hand on sketching, adding there food sketching as suggests Pinterest. I am not sure about botanic illustration, all that Latin names of it to sound smart, I didn’t find a special vocabulary (probably not perspective direction in that case). I have too many ideas to choose one of them, usually won the one, to which I had more supplies to illustrations. 1 April 2019 1st of April is perfect date to discuss President’s election in Ukraine. First about leader, it’s look as out of mind at first. But if think a little there is possibility to make a lot of conclusions. People watch TV, a lot, it’s noticeable. Next, people support fictional character and mixed him with real person who played it, it’s effect of fandom. One more, our country invented election “candidate for fun”. As plus about it, won writers who invented that story. Fiction won over reality. Agent Smith my congratulations. Second, if be serious – there we had hugest protest from people against politics. 39 candidates and people are sick of most of them. They all had dark moments in Ukrainian history and country show – enough. Wish of changes is strong power, it could be crucial for everyone’s life. Future of Ukraine is now unpredictable, because there is also wish to stay from previous President. As always it will cost in final to the country. There is possibility that leader of this election could be next President. He could has difficult future – people usually disappointed in real people who played fictional characters. To be worthy of real respect is huge challenge. 31 March 2019 I already voted and was beautiful day to make illustrations for new text.   I publish today new short story.  29 March 2019 Yesterday whole day I rewrite and totally remade story and today after first revision could say – teapot is saved. I again changed main character, took from not finished other story. And it really worked somehow. Now it’s revise, revise and one more revise stage. After I removed few too long scenes, story became dynamic and I like it much better, even after story became shorter. Probably will add some illustrations, I need change of activity. Fine, surname is painting friendly. 27 March 2019 Today is World Theater day. I wrote micro, after on radio heard like actor said that theater could be compared to preparing borscht.  P.S.: Not important boasting. Today I wanted to search for additional template to fashion illustration to one of the unfinished story. Didn’t find anything, everywhere just possible decorations for Easter. Instead I had idea how to decorate other story with Italian style. But story is not about that. In the bus in front of me young man quickly made homework for Polish course and when I returned home I tested my knowledge of language. Didn’t read or study it for many months, was curious. Made few different tests, result each time was the same – C2. I am proud of myself and will search what could read on Polish, till it’s not forbidden language, yet. And connected with Polish I want to make confession – never read or watch Harry Potter’s stories and didn’t get that references. For me it wasn’t interesting, because grew up on “Akademia pana Kleksa” stories. It wasn’t only watching again and again “Maria, Mirabela” and “Tři oříšky pro Popelku”. 26 March 2019 In new micro could be noticed influence of reading too many articles about writer’s productivity and hard work on checking vocabulary knowledge.  24 March 2019 I decided not to postpone this micro till the Monday, it’s absolutely Sunday’s reading. All resemblance with real people or events are coincidental.  23 March 2019 New photo at the top of the blog. I wanted to add some spring mood to site. There are first rare green leaves, at least. So I tried to make some “spring is in the air”.   I removed all previous posts, as warned. I try to make one more time fresh start.    Mail: aksioma@neonet.ua Main Copyright © 2003-2019. All rights reserved |